Morals and Values

You know, all my life I have tried to enact the morals and values my grandfather has instilled in me.  I believe it was important that I perfect these priceless gestures so that it just come out instinctively and naturally.

These are the same morals and values that I want my children to pick up as well.  They need to be great humans in a society that rarely shows its emotions on its sleeve.  I know I have done well so far and I believe that once they are on their own, they will conquer any obstacles while feeling good about themselves and where they came from.

I bring the subject up because I feel that I've been doing all of this for nothing.  All it takes is one selfish, self-centered, manipulative person to change your views or, at the least, change your heart for the worse.

Sometimes I feel that what I have learned was a waste of time and energy.  That the promises that were made were made with fingers crossed behind their backs.  It's an unfortunate circumstance but the truth is the truth.

I can only speak for myself but I am sure that there are others that can feel my grief.  Others that have been abused because they are generous and loyal.  I will, however, be representing myself.

I'm at a point in my life that I should be able to identify any/every attempt at me to make my life hell.  The question that always comes up is, What did I do to deserve this?  I always end up with the answer that God does things for a reason.

After all the lessons, teachings and disciplines regarding my morels and values, I am disappointed.  My Grandfather, may he rest in peace, is probably shaking his head right about now. 

I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is FAT.  Unfortunately it is true.  I will not, however, allow my weight to define me.  I am a great person.  I am intelligent, experienced, artistic and so forth.  

I know that any woman that sees beyond the look, will truly see what a great catch I am. This woman will also wonder why my previous relationship didn't work.  She will come to the conclusion that my ex-wife left a great family.

That alone will be karma enough but I want more.  I want full remorse.  I want to know why?  It's been a question that has been looming on the back burner and I believe it needs to be answered.

Was I not enough of a  gentleman to her?  Could I have done more to fight for the relationship?  Should I have treated her like shit to save our marriage?  I know the latter is absurd but I feel that some women need to be treated badly and if that's the case, I would still be single because I am not like that.

After thinking about it, I know I did right by her.  I also know that Karma works in mysterious ways.  I believe it so therefore it's inevitable.  I'm glad I have this blog.  It sounds different when it's written out.  I will continue being me.  God will take care of the rest for me.

Hosting my own radio station

Well!  I've decided that I want my own Internet radio station.  I don't know why but I've been getting a lot of compliments about my voice.  I was told I should do radio.  So, I looked into it and decided to do an English and Spanish themed Radio Station.  50-50.

I used to listen to some radio stations but the existence of Payola is still in effect not allowing some great music to be played and/or acknowledged.

I will notify all my friends once i get all my ducks in a row.  I'm sure you will not be disappointed with my selections and/or interviews.  i want to base all of it on or around the Lower East Side/East Village.

Please, if you have any suggestions about what to play or talk about on the air, let me know through inbox or email me at PIANOKEN@AOL.COM.  I'm seriously excited about it!

To my friend

I have often written about how religion is nothing but energies seen in different views.  What people often feel in church  and is described as the "Holy" Spirit is, to me, the culmination of all the positive energies combining into one great energy enlightening the worshipers.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with that.  I have found that focusing with sincere emotion on something you want usually results in that energy providing you with what you are asking for from the start.  I also notice that saying some things over and over again increase the energy to your request every time you say it.

I know why prayers are said over and over again.  It brings a sense of peace to the one that is praying.  That sense is in fact an energy.  To re-focus one's energy on something new is a task in itself.  It is a new beginning with new obstacles to overcome.

I have this friend that has found that things around her have been deteriorating little by little.  She has been forced to say goodbye to a few friends and that alone has made her sad.  The aura that has set around her is one of a negative branding.

It is described as Karma.  What you put out in the world comes back to you.  People often take advantage of friends and they don't realize that they are damaging, not only their relationship, but the energies surrounding them as well.

I found myself in a similar predicament while I was still married.  It was obvious what the ex-wife was doing and , even though we won't specifically talk about that, there was a fog of negativity in my home.

It was about 12 midnight.  My ex-wife was out partying as usual with those friends that just wanted her to hang out.  I went to my window that faces the river and I began to pray.  I didn't pray the "Our Father" or any other set prayers.  I simply stood there talking to God.

I wept, I laughed and I prayed.  I prayed with sincere and powerful emotion and I asked the Almighty to remove all the negativity out of my life.  I even asked that if that meant my wife had to go, then so be it.  I was hoping that he would just set my Ex-wife on the right family path but instead, 9 days later, she was gone.

I was a pain that I thought I wouldn't be able to handle but I did.  I moved on.  I have never been such at peace as I am now.  Don't get me wrong, I know I must forgive her but it's not time yet.  I wish her the best and I bless her at night but I'm not ready yet.  Soon.  I hope.

In the past 3 years, I have lost friendships that went as far back as 30+ years.  Friends that I would have given my life for.  Friends, who's true colors came out when, I either needed them or they would throw me in front of the bus to impress another friend.

It's unfortunate but it's true.  I love each and every one of them but I needed that negativity out.  Se la vie.  I'm just writing today, I guess to convince myself that I am on the right track.  My kids are great and all is good in the Bravo household.  A little lonely as usual but hey, God is good and he will provide.

Back to my friend.  My advise to you is simple.  Things are going to get worse before they get better and you are probably going to lose more friends before you actually realize who your true friends really are.

As I told you before, surround yourself with friends that don't need nothing from you and are positive.  You will be fine!  I know.  Good Karma out, Good Karma back in.

In conclusion, to all my friends that have been reading this, Have a Happy and Healthy Holiday and New Year!!!!

12/21/12 Put yourself at ease!! Read

Hey everybody!

I just spent twenty minutes explaining to my children that the world will not end on 12/21/12.  A task which is not that easy.  I figured this would be a great time to put some at ease with this blog today as well.

Here is my first issue:

ready? okay! it may be the year 2012 for us but for:

the Hebrew calendar it's the year 5768

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the Chinese calendar it's the year 4706

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the reformed Indian calendar it's the year 1929. 

the Muslim Calendar it's the year 2987.

the Persian calendar it's the year 1386.

the Thereveda Buddhist calendar it's the year 2551.

Whose to say that any of our calendars are right?  If that's the case most of them have already past 2012.  

Nothing happened right?

According to the research that I have done:

the Mayans never predicted that this is the end of the world.  They, In fact, would have considered it an honor 

to witness the calendar turn over.  Once the calendar finishes the "Mayan Long Count" on the wheel, they just 

start it over again.  Much like our own Gregorian Calender ends 12/31 then begins a new calendar on 01/01.

For my friends that call themselves "Christians", I say unto 

you, Nor the Angels in heaven or the Son knows when the 

end will come.  Only the Father.  Matthew 24 35-36

5 Now, brothers and sisters, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, ² for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night.

There will be no polarity shifts.  that takes 5000 -10,000 years to happen.

Although I believe that we are at the beginning of the end, I'm sure that there are more things to happen before it's time.

So, please don't lose any sleep over this.  I'm sure most of you realize that it has been the 21st in other parts of the world already for more than 1/2 a day!  What makes us so special that it has to end with us?

If you still feel like that then write all your valuables to me.  I need a car and some cash. 

Enjoy your day people and have a great nights sleep! 

What reason does he have for letting this happen?

This world never ceases to amaze me.  that's not necessarily a good thing.  These killings in Ct shouldn't have never happened.  These children, CHILDREN, didn't deserve to be cut down this early in life.

The coward took his own life after he killed 27 people, 18 of which were children.  What can we do to prevent this from ever happening again.  Stronger gun control laws.  Tell Clint Eastwood to retire already!  Tell Charleston Heston to mind his fucking business.  It's not the colonial times where we have to defend out country on farmlands.

Target shooting?  With Automatic machine guns?!  That's an animal right there!!!  I'm legitimately scared!  How am i going to feel when my children go to school on Monday?  I wonder if they are going to have some counseling for the children that ask about the CT murders?

Here is my prayer to God for the victims:

Heavenly Father Almighty God, on this solemn day and hour I ask and pray that you bring comfort to the

 families of this horrific tragedy. That you send your angels not only to accompany those that passed, those that

 survived. To bring comfort and security to the children that are witnesses. Father accept the victims into your

 arms so that they may be with you in the kingdom of heaven forever and ever! In Jesus' Almighty Name!

 AMEN. (We Pray)


I can't imagine what these families are going thru.  I often hear that God does things "For a 

reason". What reason does he have for letting this happen?  

"Is there any way a person can get out of the "Buddy", "Amigo" or "Friend" Zone?"

Sometimes I have to laugh.  I posted a question on facebook yesterday and the reactions were informative.  The question was: "Is there any way a person can get out of the "Buddy", "Amigo" or "Friend" Zone?"  Many responses and the reality is that the question was not for me.

I mean, I asked that question for two reasons, 1. I wanted to get a good conversation going. ( It's been a while!) 2. A friend asked me and I didn't have the answer for him.  I had to pose the question as if it were mine because if he did it, the girl would know.

For some reason, I like doing these things for my friends.  Even though I probably put myself in situations with others, I often find myself having to explain.  Like I'm doing now.  The responses were great but it didn't help him.  He lost her as a friend because he is too embarrassed to be around her.

What's worse is that I believe someone misconstrued OUR friendship because she probably read the question and thought it was her.  I hope that was not the case but nevertheless, I have to make sure she knows it wasn't her.

Most people that know me, know that I am now getting used to being alone.  I am enjoying it immensely.  I am now definitely sure that I am not ready for a relationship.  Many of my friends agree to that even tho I am separated for the last 2 1/2 years.

The truth of the matter is that I am lacking in "Physical" communications (Wink Wink!) but other than that, I'm great!  With the help of a few of my close friends, I've been able to take back what my ex-wife took from me.  My self-esteem and I'm happier for it.

I'm ready to move on with my play by making it first to a indie film and I am still raising my kids which, coincidentally, would probably be a factor in me dating someone.  You know, "baggage" and all.  Admittedly, there are a few facebook friends that I would like to get to know a little better but I know it would be harder to work out.

I keep it simple and usually wait for the woman to flirt or make her move therefore giving me the option of "yes" or "no".  It may sound a little vain but when it comes to rejection, I can get depressed and I've had it being in that state of mind.  I'm done with that.

To those that read my blog.  I appreciate you reading it and getting to know me more than the others that don't read it.  I enjoy writing it when I can and I will continue to do so.  I want to finish by saying that, usually, my private life is just that "Private".  I hope when "It" finally happens  I will be able to keep it between the woman and myself.

LOL.....Any takers?  

x

Just stirring up the minds! (Freedom of Speech)

Today, I would like to discuss freedom of speech.  But I would like to discuss both sides.  It would be hypocritical to defend this right, for example, if you have a problem with anyone making racists remarks.

I honestly believe that our forefathers, as ignorant as some of them were, were on the right track in allowing of free citizen to say whatever he wants to say without persecution.  Unfortunately, they would have never been able to predict how our speech patterns affect our lives today.

Back then, it was okay to use the words "Nigger" or "Unclean" when describing a person of color/slave.  They didn't consider the slaves anywhere near human to think of them as equals.  The utmost in ignorance a human being can be.

To me, people are human.  That is the race I see.  "If you cut us, do we not bleed?"  Our founding fathers and subsequently, their immediate ancestors attempted to continue their ignorance for years to come after the constitution was signed.  

Fortunately, to that end, we were blessed with a President with enough foresight  and compassion to recognize the true spirit of the preamble, "That all men are created equal". He was the major part of freeing the slaves and stepping us forward into a slave free society.

This brings me to today's society.  As disgusting as this may sound, shouldn't you be able to say whatever you want in this country?  Is it illegal, for example, to say in basic conversation, something like "Black people should know their place in this country"?  Should it matter if it was said deep in redneck "Bama" country or in the state of Maine?

Doesn't the constitution grant us the "Unconditional" right to that freedom?  To say whatever the hell we want?  Since the construction of that right, there have been many amendments added to it.  (I'm assuming now.)  Our freedom of speech doesn't grant the right to yell "FIRE!" in a crowded movie theater.

Nor does it allow to place anyone's life in danger because of the words used.  Placing restrictions on our speech, to me, nullifies that freedom and we are no longer free to say what we want.  I personally enjoy this freedom.  For if it didn't exist, I wouldn't have been able to even write this blog.

"Hate" crimes are my biggest argument.  When a "White" person beats someone while using prejudiced remarks, when caught, he goes to jail charged with a hate crime in which his penalties are about 10X worse then what they would be had he kept his mouth shut.

Please answer me this question because I truly don't know the answer.  Does it go down as a "hate" crime if the roles were reversed and you hear "Honky or cracker" as they beat a white man down?  I hate to ask but doesn't EVERYBODY have the right to say what they want even if they are in a heated debate or fight?

Throughout this whole blog, I've been laughing because even though it's all truly stupid, it's funny to me because it's true.  i love playing devils advocate and placing minds to work.  I've come to the conclusion that EVERYBODY is a racist, one way or another.  

You can have opinions against, Races, classes, genders, fashion statements and even intelligence.  It's all about ignorance, how we think and what we are allowed to say.  I remember being called a spic when I was younger.  It was when I lived in Massachusetts for a spell and I was one of five different races in a junior high school.

I hated it but I ate it.  What got me more upset was that a girl made fun of my NY accent in class.  i just wanted to punch her at her throat.  (This was all before I went to Seward and learned to protect myself with words!)  According to our forefathers, It was legal to be called a Spic and that girl had every right to make fun of me.  

I'm just saying that no one can actually say they are "Free" in this country or anywhere else for that matter.  God bless you all and thanks for reading!  Remember, just my opinion.  If you don't like what I said, don't read it anymore.  1st amendment!!!!  LOL