Today I just wanted to touch base on the idea of "Beating around the bush". In all my years, I've learned how to accurately read people. Their body language, the speech patterns and obviously, even the faces one puts on can tell you exactly how they feel.
I find it harder, however, when I'm being text and/or talking on the phone because I can't see the person in front of me. So, like any other normal person, I come to assume what you are actually saying.
I speak to people often and find that they say one thing and mean another. Usually, the total opposite of how they really feel. That's okay but it definitely gets tiring and I know that some people use that as a defense mechanism because they have been hurt too many times in their lives.
Some few examples of what I mean, for instance, If I invite someone somewhere or make plans with them, I really look forward to those plans. I hear the enthusiasm in their voice and I even get more excited because it sounds like fun.
Unfortunately, in all the excitement the reality is that they were saying one thing and meaning another. They never confirm with you and when you finally get in touch with them, they made other plans. My question at this point is "Why lead me on?"
The truth is easier to handle so that I can make adjustments. I don't take anything to heart anymore except when that is done to me, I change my routine so that I fit you in and it messes me up. Don't lead me on if you are not going to go thru with it.
Another example is, when I speak to certain people on the phone or via text. They begin to tell me how they feel when I know that they are feeling the total opposite. Not only can I sense it, I can hear it as well. They want to tell me something but the guilt that they feel do not allow them to do so. It's either guilt or pride.
Either way, it's not a good thing. I totally believe in the truth. If you say what you feel from the get, the feelings would be less hurt. This "Beating around the bush" deal has got to stop. C'mon people, if you don't like me then say it and we will deal with that. And this definitely goes to some of my "So called friends" who look at me with one face and talk shit behind my back. I know it to be true just by the way you look at me, let alone the comments I get from people we know.
I lost a friendship that I had for 30 years. We were the best of friends and by saying one thing to me and then saying another to someone else, he took a chance at losing the friendship and lost. I miss my friend and for some reason lately I have been thinking about him. I would never speak about anybody badly to impress someone else. Anyway, it goes to show that you never know who's listening.
I wanted this to be short and sweet but I guess I just couldn't do it. LOL Put all your pride and guilt aside and say what's on your mind. If I am a true friend to you, you won't lose that. However, remember, it works both ways. If you can do it for me, I can do it for you and even though it may hurt at first, I would consider it the best for both of us.
Have a great day! #Speaking Truth!
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Religion and Politics.
Wow! Where do I begin? I mean, my dear Grandfather always taught me never to argue those two topics because they could be deadly. I know he was referring to the topic of politics specifically because in Puerto Rico, if you say something wrong to the wrong party, you could die, quickly!
To give you a short scenario, I have a friend that just happens to be an ex, that is now a Jehovah's Witness. As usual, I respect all religions as long as you don't push yours on me. Anyway, we were having a great conversation until it went the wrong way, Religion.
I tried explaining to her that in "MY OPINION", I'm good with my feelings on religion. I know that God almighty loves me and that I will be saved as long as I believe and submit to Jesus Christ as my Savior. I try to treat others as they should be treated and I sincerely believe that all God wants for us is to be happy.
I know her intentions are good intentions and that she is just trying to help me, but I also know that she has been programmed to be the way she is when it comes to that. For some reason, however, I feel that she wants to break out of that position and be who she used to be herself and when she feels like she is about to stray, she quickly turns to the bible.
Of course, that's her decision. I respect that. But again, please don't get upset if I don't want to hear it. This lead to a very heated "Debate" and I attempted to end it as we usually do, let's "Agree to disagree" but for some reason this time, she refused. Don't know why.
Okay, for this one time, I will give you an idea of what my feelings are about religion. I was raised Catholic. Of course when I was younger it was the hip religion to be in. I didn't know better because I was a baby and a young lad in Catholic school.
After learning about different ones, I come to the conclusion that there has to be some sort of compromise in the middle. There is one constant in all religions and that is that there is ONE Supreme Being. Whether it is God, Allah, Jehovah, Buddha, etc....
The beliefs stand that you follow the teachings of this being. If you really look at it, the actual spirit of the Bible, Torah and so forth, say the same thing. "Treat others as you would want to be treated." That's why it's called the golden rule.
These Spirits/energies that we believe in are all around and have a tendency of making us feel good and leading us in the directions that we need to go. That is, of course, if you truly and honestly believe in them.
Yes, if you were to ask me what is my "Religion" I would answer Christian Catholic. I think I am, however, a freelance Christian Catholic and I enjoy it very much. More of a Charismatic Conservative if you will. If I can respect yours, please give me the courtesy of respecting mine.
"Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you"
As far as my friend, the JW. I will always love you for the friend that you are. I hope that this doesn't get you upset with me. Either way, I know where I stand. Thanks for listening, I enjoyed writing this entry.
To give you a short scenario, I have a friend that just happens to be an ex, that is now a Jehovah's Witness. As usual, I respect all religions as long as you don't push yours on me. Anyway, we were having a great conversation until it went the wrong way, Religion.
I tried explaining to her that in "MY OPINION", I'm good with my feelings on religion. I know that God almighty loves me and that I will be saved as long as I believe and submit to Jesus Christ as my Savior. I try to treat others as they should be treated and I sincerely believe that all God wants for us is to be happy.
I know her intentions are good intentions and that she is just trying to help me, but I also know that she has been programmed to be the way she is when it comes to that. For some reason, however, I feel that she wants to break out of that position and be who she used to be herself and when she feels like she is about to stray, she quickly turns to the bible.
Of course, that's her decision. I respect that. But again, please don't get upset if I don't want to hear it. This lead to a very heated "Debate" and I attempted to end it as we usually do, let's "Agree to disagree" but for some reason this time, she refused. Don't know why.
Okay, for this one time, I will give you an idea of what my feelings are about religion. I was raised Catholic. Of course when I was younger it was the hip religion to be in. I didn't know better because I was a baby and a young lad in Catholic school.
After learning about different ones, I come to the conclusion that there has to be some sort of compromise in the middle. There is one constant in all religions and that is that there is ONE Supreme Being. Whether it is God, Allah, Jehovah, Buddha, etc....
The beliefs stand that you follow the teachings of this being. If you really look at it, the actual spirit of the Bible, Torah and so forth, say the same thing. "Treat others as you would want to be treated." That's why it's called the golden rule.
These Spirits/energies that we believe in are all around and have a tendency of making us feel good and leading us in the directions that we need to go. That is, of course, if you truly and honestly believe in them.
Yes, if you were to ask me what is my "Religion" I would answer Christian Catholic. I think I am, however, a freelance Christian Catholic and I enjoy it very much. More of a Charismatic Conservative if you will. If I can respect yours, please give me the courtesy of respecting mine.
"Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you"
As far as my friend, the JW. I will always love you for the friend that you are. I hope that this doesn't get you upset with me. Either way, I know where I stand. Thanks for listening, I enjoyed writing this entry.
Monday, April 23, 2012
A friend is the dollar in your pocket.
I haven't posted in a while so here goes my latest beef with the world. So called, "Friends".
I know that we really can't call Facebook friends, "friends". It's a social network and I should expect my acquaintances to act as such. I, however, have more faith in my friends that they have of me. For some reason, and I think it's of no fault of my own, I've been blasted and judged, not only behind my back but to my face. The shit is that it's done with a smile on their face and for me not to stir up any problems, I stay quiet and take the abuse. It's anal sex without the lube but with a smile!
Some of these, so-called friends, have placed themselves on such high horses that they can't even see the toilet when they shit! Being part of a click for a long time has given me the experience of a lifetime. I enjoyed the company very much but the honest truth is that everyone gets old. Life moves on. I have lost some very close friends in the past, due to mis-communications, gossip and/or death.
Friends that I truly shed a tear for. Ironically, that's how I've been rating my new friends. Would I shed a tear for them if they passed? Sorry to say but honestly 70% of that answer is no. In high school I was a proud young man. I earned my station in school and I wore the title very well. I may have seemed a bit conceited but I think that view was from haters. sorry to say it but it's true. I never felt I was better than anybody and I still feel the same way now.
I'm just finding it hard to have a conversation with anybody without being judged because I don't drink, smoke or hangout with two-faced, alcoholic hypocrites! Got news for you, I may live in the PJ's, may be home alone, no drinks, no drugs but I am me. And, I am doing what God wants me to do. My kids are not hanging in the streets despite what their mom did to them and they are thriving.
I know I'm venting but I've been holding it in too long. I wish certain people would take their own advice and mind their business. I expect a lot from my friends because they expect a lot from me. If I have come through for them why can't they do the same?
A true friend can go years without seeing each other and it would feel like it was yesterday. I don't feel like that with many of you "friends". I also identify a friend by the title my children call them. It's usually Tio or Titi. It's that because that friend is family. Uncle Spray, Uncle Gus, Uncle Gee. It used to be Tio Jose, titi becky but they took a risk and lost.
For my high school acquaintances, well, those that are truly my friends, you know who you are. You've called me or messaged me out of nowhere just to see how I am doing. Or how my kids are doing. I appreciate that so much. Uncle Jimmy. He's been there through and through and I'll always have much love for him even tho I don't see him often enough. For those that judged me, I will weed you out one by one out of my life.
All I've ever asked of anybody was to walk a mile in my shoes, then judge me not les thee be judged.
Oh and before I forget, If I send you a personal message and you don't answer it, I take offense to that. It takes two minutes just to say, "Everything is fine Ken, I'll get to you later." It's a simple acknowledgement and it releases the stress of my worrying. If you can't answer anything for me then I must say goodbye to you conceited fucks of the world.
To those I love, you understand. To those I like, you too understand. To the rest. Up yours!
I know that we really can't call Facebook friends, "friends". It's a social network and I should expect my acquaintances to act as such. I, however, have more faith in my friends that they have of me. For some reason, and I think it's of no fault of my own, I've been blasted and judged, not only behind my back but to my face. The shit is that it's done with a smile on their face and for me not to stir up any problems, I stay quiet and take the abuse. It's anal sex without the lube but with a smile!
Some of these, so-called friends, have placed themselves on such high horses that they can't even see the toilet when they shit! Being part of a click for a long time has given me the experience of a lifetime. I enjoyed the company very much but the honest truth is that everyone gets old. Life moves on. I have lost some very close friends in the past, due to mis-communications, gossip and/or death.
Friends that I truly shed a tear for. Ironically, that's how I've been rating my new friends. Would I shed a tear for them if they passed? Sorry to say but honestly 70% of that answer is no. In high school I was a proud young man. I earned my station in school and I wore the title very well. I may have seemed a bit conceited but I think that view was from haters. sorry to say it but it's true. I never felt I was better than anybody and I still feel the same way now.
I'm just finding it hard to have a conversation with anybody without being judged because I don't drink, smoke or hangout with two-faced, alcoholic hypocrites! Got news for you, I may live in the PJ's, may be home alone, no drinks, no drugs but I am me. And, I am doing what God wants me to do. My kids are not hanging in the streets despite what their mom did to them and they are thriving.
I know I'm venting but I've been holding it in too long. I wish certain people would take their own advice and mind their business. I expect a lot from my friends because they expect a lot from me. If I have come through for them why can't they do the same?
A true friend can go years without seeing each other and it would feel like it was yesterday. I don't feel like that with many of you "friends". I also identify a friend by the title my children call them. It's usually Tio or Titi. It's that because that friend is family. Uncle Spray, Uncle Gus, Uncle Gee. It used to be Tio Jose, titi becky but they took a risk and lost.
For my high school acquaintances, well, those that are truly my friends, you know who you are. You've called me or messaged me out of nowhere just to see how I am doing. Or how my kids are doing. I appreciate that so much. Uncle Jimmy. He's been there through and through and I'll always have much love for him even tho I don't see him often enough. For those that judged me, I will weed you out one by one out of my life.
All I've ever asked of anybody was to walk a mile in my shoes, then judge me not les thee be judged.
Oh and before I forget, If I send you a personal message and you don't answer it, I take offense to that. It takes two minutes just to say, "Everything is fine Ken, I'll get to you later." It's a simple acknowledgement and it releases the stress of my worrying. If you can't answer anything for me then I must say goodbye to you conceited fucks of the world.
To those I love, you understand. To those I like, you too understand. To the rest. Up yours!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Just for fun!
I wrote this song to the theme of "I will Survive" Hope you enjoy.
At first when we got married
She was by my side
Life was perfect
and we had nothing to hide
Then as time passed by
we fell into a rut
She started looking for diversions
and she messed it all up!
And there she went
right out the door
she followed the same pattern
that she'd done before
She forgot about holding hands
and how beautiful she was
She never looked back
So I looked for God above!
And he told me, You will survive
As long as HE is by my side, I know I'll be alright
For I have been blessed with unconditional love
For God and my Angels watch me from up above!
I will survive!!!
Thank You
At first when we got married
She was by my side
Life was perfect
and we had nothing to hide
Then as time passed by
we fell into a rut
She started looking for diversions
and she messed it all up!
And there she went
right out the door
she followed the same pattern
that she'd done before
She forgot about holding hands
and how beautiful she was
She never looked back
So I looked for God above!
And he told me, You will survive
As long as HE is by my side, I know I'll be alright
For I have been blessed with unconditional love
For God and my Angels watch me from up above!
I will survive!!!
Thank You
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
An insight on how I've been feeling lately.
I've got to be honest with you. I've been thinking a lot about the past and my present situation. It's very difficult not to go a day without thinking of that one person. Anyway, How I've been feeling and how I've been thinking are two separate things. I've been feeling like something major is coming my way and it's a good thing.
Honestly, whatever good that comes to me will be a blessing. I think I have earned anything good. It's just trying to get the negative energy out of my life and the positive energy in.
The problem is that whenever I'm doing well, something happens to rewind my situation. How does one remove 16 years of a relationship from their minds? That's a good question. I've just realize that I will be alone for Christmas. I'm actually looking forward to it.
It will give me another reason to set my goals up and follow through next year. I haven't reached my preset goals yet but I will make it even if it kills me! I'm telling you that I have woken up the other day with the highest of praises for my God the Father!!!
I love him so and HE will guide me through and fight this battle that I think I have been losing. At least, emotionally. I'm physically drained but life goes on.
I'm finding that everyone is taken on there own little cliques and because I was part of my own clique, when it broke up I wasn't allowed to enter others. I understand that I'm just an acquaintance to most people. I don't get offended. Most people were just acquaintances to me too! No worries though, I'll be part of some clique again some day, at least for now I have my children and God.
It sucks to be loved and appreciated then it taken away. It should be a decision made by two but life wouldn't allow that. I don't want to go there. For those reading this, I want to thank you in taking a minute to read how I am and I want to wish you a glorious Christmas and a wonderful New Year!
BTW: It's NOT a pity party, just a way to vent! Love ya!!!
Honestly, whatever good that comes to me will be a blessing. I think I have earned anything good. It's just trying to get the negative energy out of my life and the positive energy in.
The problem is that whenever I'm doing well, something happens to rewind my situation. How does one remove 16 years of a relationship from their minds? That's a good question. I've just realize that I will be alone for Christmas. I'm actually looking forward to it.
It will give me another reason to set my goals up and follow through next year. I haven't reached my preset goals yet but I will make it even if it kills me! I'm telling you that I have woken up the other day with the highest of praises for my God the Father!!!
I love him so and HE will guide me through and fight this battle that I think I have been losing. At least, emotionally. I'm physically drained but life goes on.
I'm finding that everyone is taken on there own little cliques and because I was part of my own clique, when it broke up I wasn't allowed to enter others. I understand that I'm just an acquaintance to most people. I don't get offended. Most people were just acquaintances to me too! No worries though, I'll be part of some clique again some day, at least for now I have my children and God.
It sucks to be loved and appreciated then it taken away. It should be a decision made by two but life wouldn't allow that. I don't want to go there. For those reading this, I want to thank you in taking a minute to read how I am and I want to wish you a glorious Christmas and a wonderful New Year!
BTW: It's NOT a pity party, just a way to vent! Love ya!!!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
a simple prayer
I have been feeling a little down lately. I think its the time of year. I, however, have decided to thank God for all that I do have. I have two great kids, A place to live and plenty of facebook friends. I would rather have plenty of real friends but I reserve that right to a certain few.
You guys know who you are. LOL Anyway, i want to make this short and sweet. So,
Merry CHRISTmas and happy new year to all that read this and all that don't.
Prayer from me to you.
Heavenly Father, Almighty God, during this wonderful time of celebration of your son, Jesus Christ, I ask and pray that you give everyone the gift of love. For you have loved us so that you have given us the gift of your son and our salvation. May you grant us all, peace and happiness and allow those that need to receive. In his Almighty name I ask. AMEN.
You guys know who you are. LOL Anyway, i want to make this short and sweet. So,
Merry CHRISTmas and happy new year to all that read this and all that don't.
Prayer from me to you.
Heavenly Father, Almighty God, during this wonderful time of celebration of your son, Jesus Christ, I ask and pray that you give everyone the gift of love. For you have loved us so that you have given us the gift of your son and our salvation. May you grant us all, peace and happiness and allow those that need to receive. In his Almighty name I ask. AMEN.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
A bald Disney Princess
It was about 2:45 in the morning and I had gotten up to use the restroom. Anyway, for some reason I decided to pay all of my bills in one shot. The time was right, it was quiet and I did it in less than 15 minutes. I decided to go on facebook.
A friend of mine posted that Disney should make a Princess without hair so that little girls suffering and fighting cancer can feel that they too are beautiful. it almost brought a tear to my eye. It touched me profoundly and I don't know why.
Anyway, I wrote Disney a letter suggesting the idea and posted that letter on FB. I've gotten a few responses from other friends on FB. I must say that I would be sooo impressed if Disney actually did that. Maybe, a Prince and Princess, undercover in a hospital to deal with cancer can meet.
Maybe they hate each other in the beginning. A conceited Prince and a very beautiful but unhappy Princess try to make the best of there situation. I think I see a story there. Don't know if it would be an action packed 3D Cartoon but something is something,
I think that even, maybe, I would take a jab at writing something like that. It would interest me a lot as to how I would develop the characters. The children going through this horrible situation should be represented by some major character.
A Disney Princess would be the perfect icon. The idea needs to be presented to children that haven't been convinced that beauty is everything. With the exceptions of those mothers who are living the pageant life vicariously through their daughters, the target market should be absolutely perfect.
I never question God's plan. I just believe that he has a special place for children and maybe our ideas can motivate Disney to do what's right. thanks.
A friend of mine posted that Disney should make a Princess without hair so that little girls suffering and fighting cancer can feel that they too are beautiful. it almost brought a tear to my eye. It touched me profoundly and I don't know why.
Anyway, I wrote Disney a letter suggesting the idea and posted that letter on FB. I've gotten a few responses from other friends on FB. I must say that I would be sooo impressed if Disney actually did that. Maybe, a Prince and Princess, undercover in a hospital to deal with cancer can meet.
Maybe they hate each other in the beginning. A conceited Prince and a very beautiful but unhappy Princess try to make the best of there situation. I think I see a story there. Don't know if it would be an action packed 3D Cartoon but something is something,
I think that even, maybe, I would take a jab at writing something like that. It would interest me a lot as to how I would develop the characters. The children going through this horrible situation should be represented by some major character.
A Disney Princess would be the perfect icon. The idea needs to be presented to children that haven't been convinced that beauty is everything. With the exceptions of those mothers who are living the pageant life vicariously through their daughters, the target market should be absolutely perfect.
I never question God's plan. I just believe that he has a special place for children and maybe our ideas can motivate Disney to do what's right. thanks.
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