An update

Hey Guys,

It's been 6 months since I wrote on this blog.  I am truly trying to be positive and have positive people around me so that my life can move in a positive way.  For the most part it has been working.  It allows me to see the good in people, however, they use it to their advantage to take advantage of the good in me.

I don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing but I have been told that I have "The White Knight Syndrome".  Check out the link.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-white-knight-syndrome/200905/white-knight-commonalities

For some reason, I have to help those that are depressed or in need of some help or something.  I really don't expect anything in return.  Anyway, I agree with that thought, so I AM A WHITE KNIGHT.  LOL

There are many subjects, obviously with my QOD's, that I can talk about but today I will just talk about nothing.  I feel like a Seinfeld episode.  I believe that I have 0 friends.  It's unfortunate but true. Don't get me wrong, I do have friends but not one of them fit what I deem to be the definition of a friend.  I used to have them but they decided that I wasn't worthy.  At least to them.  LOL  That's cool.  I understand.  Sometimes you take risks and you win or lose.  This time they lost very close/brotherly friendships.

It's a shame too.  But, I am proud to say that I have about 8 million brothers in the world.  And they have accepted me as family so that does make me feel a little better.  Obviously I don't know all o them but Freemasonry is strong in the brotherhood and, as we have been accused of doing, we run shit!  LOL

Anyway, for some reason I didn't have much to say today, I'm hoping that I will have the motivation to continue blogging.  I think I am going to start rating places and stuff.  at least, in Manhattan!

That is all.

as usual, it's been a while.

Hey!

Since I probably may have one or two readers, I sometimes feel that I am writing to myself so, here I go.  I hope that if you are reading this, you understand that these are just my thoughts.  Most of you know that I don't care what others think of me but I think that, subliminally, I do.

Anyway, I have seemed to make a few new friends and have re-connected with some old ones.  I wonder why but as I once was told, people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Well, I guess one of those friends is in for a reason.  At least, I thought she was.  We could potentially help one another so well, that we could rule the arts.  Not as a couple but as a team.  Apparently, their is no interest.  So I find myself going it alone.  As usual.  It's really not a big deal but I often wonder what is the point of that specific friendship?  That is why I commented the other day, "Why are we friends"?

The other friend, well, I guess is back for another season.  LOL.  An inspiration.  At least , to me she is.  I don't think she has found herself and is relying on what others truly feel about her.  I, again, can be a true friend to her but I guess she is the type that has to learn on her own.  I hope that others don't take advantage of her.

It does bother me that they don't see.  But in the end, it is what it is.  I love everyone on facebook equally.  Differently but equal, if that makes any kind of sense.  I am blessed.  And I will continue to be blessed.  Reason, Season or lifetime, I am here if I can be for you.  If I can't, i will try to tell you and figure out another way for me to help you.

This is my blog.  It's 345 in the morning and I rarely sleep.  But, I am happy and proud.  Oh and BTW:  Karma does exist.  God has granted me the life enough to see it.  To those that think they are in charge of everybody, well, that just shows how insecure you are.  We were once family way back when, but then, well......I don't need to say anything else.  I promise I won't say anything bad when you fall on your face.  Well, maybe a quick laugh and a "I told you so!" but other than that, no.  I'll just feel sorry for you!  Okay, I'm done for today.

Colors

Red and Yellow chained together by White 
long before the mixture turned black. 
Pounding and pounding together in the heat of the sun, forging an endless track. 
Many a sun and his sister go by and you dwell on the past. 
Stand in your shoes today, 
and not those with the holes in the souls that you threw away. 
Do not preoccupy yourself with judgments of colors with dark patches. 
Keep clear of illusions and seek the purity of a rainbow. 
Use your colors so that the world understands beauty. 

Ode to a poet

Ode to a poet - by Ken Bravo to Maya #MayaAngelou

You can fight with words
be right with words
have sight with words

You can LOVE with words
rise above with words
Be IN LOVE with words

To inspire a desire made of fire
to calm the sea with wind
to paint the art of air
to touch all that is there.

You have brought life to all that hear
your words from far and near
You will sign your name from above
To my children, from Maya, with Love.  

"I wish that you could see" - A Poem

I wish that you could see- By Ken Bravo

I wish that you could see
The energies inside of me
Things that I have had a while
Things that make life worth wild.

I need someone to share them with
Someone to see that I'm no myth
That I have all of THIS to share
Overwhelmed with more to spare

I'm not ashamed this is me
My emotions open for all to see
The question is "Who is Brave?"
"Who'll step up and my heart engrave?"

It's been a while so I'll make my plea
For all who'd like just to see
My most covenant energy
that lies so deep inside of me.         

                                                      -Ken Bravo

"Stop and Frisk"

I think that the fact that I am 47 years old and have experienced New York in the 80's, it has given me a very specific opinion on the "Stop and Frisk" program.  I honestly believe that it is a tool used to prevent crimes.  Although it may seem a little prejudiced at times, it is still a very effective way to control the crime statistics to say the least.

"Stop and Frisk" implements a certain profiling technique to make it a successful option.  In my opinion, it is NOT a racial profiling but rather a "criminal" class profiling.  As we all are aware of, criminals come in all forms of shapes, sizes and colors.  For any one of them to say that they are being racially profiled to be able to stop and frisk, would be ludicrous.

Back in the 80's, there was implemented a complete drug overhaul in the LES.  Most of you remember that. Two cops became famous because of the program.  Baby-face and Rambo.  They were feared because they didn't fear.  They would pull you over and frisked you just because they felt you farted in the wind wrong and they got a bad whiff of it.

It was allowed and very effective.  Unfortunately, we can say that we are safer because of their techniques. To say whether they were right or wrong doesn't matter.  What matters is the outcome.  Now, the stop and frisk has been better regulated but to say that cops can be sued for racial discrimination?  Again, stupid to say the least.

We rely on well known and proven techniques to keep the community safe.  And when I say "WE", I mean the law abiding citizens that just happen to be surrounded by criminals.  I, personally, just want to raise my kids to the best of my ability without the fear of them being killed coming home from school one day.  If Stopping someone that looks suspicious and frisking them can help in that mission.  Well, then do what is necessary.

If I am stopped and frisked, which has happened in the past, I understand that they have a job to do.  If I have given them any reason to do it, then I must be suspicious enough for their reasoning. I may have been hanging out with the wrong crowd, or coming out of a bodega that is known for dealing.  I could be at the wrong place/wrong time.  Who knows?  Personally, I don't give them any reason to do it but if it has to be done.  So let it be done.

I am from the train of thought that, Unfortunately, if you were arrested and convicted of a crime, you lose all rights as a normal citizen.  I understand one tries to get out of the stigma of that arrest and criminality but the bottom line is that you are now a known criminal and have to keep away from the nonsense.  If you find yourself there again and get stopped and frisked, then you have nothing else to say but deal with it.

If this order to stop the "Stop and Frisk" Law isn't appealed, we are going back into time to the 80's before the clean up.  Criminals will go back to carrying weapons like they were carrying keys.  It will become the "Norm" again.  Many "Children" will die again just because someone thinks they can piss farther then the other person who just happens to insult them at that moment.

It is going to get a lot worse as the days go by.  NOT the years but rather days!!  I have never agreed with Bloomberg's policies.  At least the majority of them.  I, however, agree with this one.  It has to be like the United States and Russia was during the cold war.  We knew as they knew that we can blow the fuck out of each other so we never tempted fate and kept each other at arms length.  We needed it. and it worked.

"Stop and Frisk" works as the tool that has them thinking, "You know what? I'm keeping my piece upstairs.  I don't need to do another extra year for this piece.  I might get "Stopped" for nonsense and get busted." Right there, someone life has been saved and maybe even his own life was deterred from going to prison/dying for nothing.

My last thought is this.  If you were stopped and frisked, it wasn't your first time and probably you have a record of dealing or doing something stupid in your previous life.  If it a your first time, please understand it is actually for your safety, unless of course, you are busted for something. You are most likely to get caught so I say MAN UP! Stop doing what you shouldn't be doing.  It's not racial profiling, it is a completely LEGAL type of criminal profiling.  

Maybe you should find your waistline, find a job or continue going to school and then they wont bother you anymore.  As always, this is my personal opinion.   

Another day

Well, it's another day and I've been thru so much lately.  Where do I begin?  In my last blog entry, I put down that even family can't be trusted.  The loyalty is more important to me than most other values.  I am still trying to believe that but there are many situations that cause me to see differently.

In recent weeks, I have been placed in situations where my small reputation has been place in jeopardy.  My reliance on someone else is usually mute unless I am very close and that person has never screwed me before.

I don't place trust on people easily.  To me, trust must be earned.  Again, I have had to change the outcome to save face.  When this is all said and done, you will know the outcome by my failure or my success. I've committed to this project and I'll be damned if I'm going to look bad on it.

Also, my ex-wife is driving from Texas to pick up our children so that they can stay with her for two weeks.  She will bring them back driving as well.  I feel that she just does whatever she wants regardless of what I'm feeling or even considering a conversation with me.

My main goal is the security and safety of my children.  By her driving over there, she makes the risks higher than flying. So, if you are reading this, I ask for your prayers to keep my children safe throughout their cross country adventure and have God bring them back safe and sound.

Also, after all the nonsense that my ex wife has done to both me and the children, I still don't trust her as far as I can throw her.  She lost all forms of trust with me and she expects me to just give it to her simply because she is their mother and it's a given. Well, News flash, uh, NO!

I hope I'm doing the right thing by my kids and even tho I will be alone for two weeks and I will miss them, I hope they have a wonderful time on this trip.

Finally, in this entry I want to say that I am still depressed.  I am a little scared that it will be a deeper depression when the kids are out and I realize that I'm alone.  Again.  This is no joke.  I feel like someone has put a serious curse on me and It's working.

It's not allowing me to meet anyone new. To hang with old friends due to scheduling conflicts or to be invited to get together's because most of the people there are in couples or have something against me. (Even tho they won't admit or approach me with the problem).

Yes, it may be a little paranoia but the bottom line is that I'm still alone.  Don't get me wrong, I truly appreciate those that I have considered friends and are still there for me.  I just don't want to interrupt their lives for me and I understand that.

I'm lonely.  I'm tired.  I'm upset at some parts of life and of how some of my, "So-called" friends, are selfish and only think of themselves without seeing the consequences or rewards of their actions.  Anyway, Have a wonderful day!