Wednesday, December 21, 2011

An insight on how I've been feeling lately.

I've got to be honest with you.  I've been thinking a lot about the past and my present situation.  It's very difficult not to go a day without thinking of that one person.  Anyway, How I've been feeling and how I've been thinking are two separate things.  I've been feeling like something major is coming my way and it's a good thing.

Honestly, whatever good that comes to me will be a blessing.  I think I have earned anything good.  It's just trying to get the negative energy out of my life and the positive energy in.

The problem is that whenever I'm doing well, something happens to rewind my situation.  How does one remove 16 years of a relationship from their minds?  That's a good question.  I've just realize that I will be alone for Christmas.  I'm actually looking forward to it.

It will give me another reason to set my goals up and follow through next year.  I haven't reached my preset goals yet but I will make it even if it kills me!  I'm telling you that I have woken up the other day with the highest of praises for my God the Father!!!
I love him so and HE will guide me through and fight this battle that I think I have been losing.  At least, emotionally.  I'm physically drained but life goes on.

I'm finding that everyone is taken on there own little cliques and because I was part of my own clique, when it broke up I wasn't allowed to enter others.  I understand that I'm just an acquaintance to most people.  I don't get offended.  Most people were just acquaintances to me too!  No worries though, I'll be part of some clique again some day, at least for now I have my children and God.

It sucks to be loved and appreciated then it taken away.  It should be a decision made by two but life wouldn't allow that.  I don't want to go there.  For those reading this, I want to thank you in taking a minute to read how I am and I want to wish you a glorious Christmas and a wonderful New Year!

BTW:  It's NOT a pity party, just a way to vent!  Love ya!!!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

a simple prayer

I have been feeling a little down lately.  I think its the time of year.  I, however, have decided to thank God for all that I do have.  I have two great kids, A place to live and plenty of facebook friends.  I would rather have plenty of real friends but I reserve that right to a certain few.

You guys know who you are.  LOL  Anyway, i want  to make this short and sweet.  So,
Merry CHRISTmas and happy new year to all that read this and all that don't.

Prayer from me to you.

Heavenly Father, Almighty God, during this wonderful time of celebration of your son, Jesus Christ, I ask and pray that you give everyone the gift of love.  For you have loved us so that you have given us the gift of your son and our salvation.  May you grant us all, peace and happiness and allow those that need to receive.  In his Almighty name I ask.  AMEN.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

A bald Disney Princess

It was about 2:45 in the morning and I had gotten up to use the restroom.  Anyway, for some reason I decided to pay all of my bills in one shot.  The time was right, it was quiet and I did it in less than 15 minutes.  I decided to go on facebook.

A friend of mine posted that Disney should make a Princess without hair so that little girls suffering and fighting cancer can feel that they too are beautiful.  it almost brought a tear to my eye.  It touched me profoundly and I don't know why.

Anyway, I wrote Disney a letter suggesting the idea and posted that letter on FB.  I've gotten a few responses from other friends on FB.  I must say that I would be sooo impressed if Disney actually did that.  Maybe, a Prince and Princess, undercover in a hospital to deal with cancer can meet. 

Maybe they hate each other in the beginning.  A conceited Prince and a very beautiful but unhappy Princess try to make the best of there situation.  I think I see a story there.  Don't know if it would be an action packed 3D Cartoon but something is something,

I think that even, maybe, I would take a jab at writing something like that.  It would interest me a lot as to how I would develop the characters.  The children going through this horrible situation should be represented by some major character.

A Disney Princess would be the perfect icon.  The idea needs to be presented to children that haven't been convinced that beauty is everything.  With the exceptions of those mothers who are living the pageant life vicariously through their daughters, the target market should be absolutely perfect.

I never question God's plan.  I just believe that he has a special place for children and maybe our ideas can motivate Disney to do what's right.  thanks.