Well! I've decided that I want my own Internet radio station. I don't know why but I've been getting a lot of compliments about my voice. I was told I should do radio. So, I looked into it and decided to do an English and Spanish themed Radio Station. 50-50.
I used to listen to some radio stations but the existence of Payola is still in effect not allowing some great music to be played and/or acknowledged.
I will notify all my friends once i get all my ducks in a row. I'm sure you will not be disappointed with my selections and/or interviews. i want to base all of it on or around the Lower East Side/East Village.
Please, if you have any suggestions about what to play or talk about on the air, let me know through inbox or email me at PIANOKEN@AOL.COM. I'm seriously excited about it!
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Saturday, December 22, 2012
To my friend
I have often written about how religion is nothing but energies seen in different views. What people often feel in church and is described as the "Holy" Spirit is, to me, the culmination of all the positive energies combining into one great energy enlightening the worshipers.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I have found that focusing with sincere emotion on something you want usually results in that energy providing you with what you are asking for from the start. I also notice that saying some things over and over again increase the energy to your request every time you say it.
I know why prayers are said over and over again. It brings a sense of peace to the one that is praying. That sense is in fact an energy. To re-focus one's energy on something new is a task in itself. It is a new beginning with new obstacles to overcome.
I have this friend that has found that things around her have been deteriorating little by little. She has been forced to say goodbye to a few friends and that alone has made her sad. The aura that has set around her is one of a negative branding.
It is described as Karma. What you put out in the world comes back to you. People often take advantage of friends and they don't realize that they are damaging, not only their relationship, but the energies surrounding them as well.
I found myself in a similar predicament while I was still married. It was obvious what the ex-wife was doing and , even though we won't specifically talk about that, there was a fog of negativity in my home.
It was about 12 midnight. My ex-wife was out partying as usual with those friends that just wanted her to hang out. I went to my window that faces the river and I began to pray. I didn't pray the "Our Father" or any other set prayers. I simply stood there talking to God.
I wept, I laughed and I prayed. I prayed with sincere and powerful emotion and I asked the Almighty to remove all the negativity out of my life. I even asked that if that meant my wife had to go, then so be it. I was hoping that he would just set my Ex-wife on the right family path but instead, 9 days later, she was gone.
I was a pain that I thought I wouldn't be able to handle but I did. I moved on. I have never been such at peace as I am now. Don't get me wrong, I know I must forgive her but it's not time yet. I wish her the best and I bless her at night but I'm not ready yet. Soon. I hope.
In the past 3 years, I have lost friendships that went as far back as 30+ years. Friends that I would have given my life for. Friends, who's true colors came out when, I either needed them or they would throw me in front of the bus to impress another friend.
It's unfortunate but it's true. I love each and every one of them but I needed that negativity out. Se la vie. I'm just writing today, I guess to convince myself that I am on the right track. My kids are great and all is good in the Bravo household. A little lonely as usual but hey, God is good and he will provide.
Back to my friend. My advise to you is simple. Things are going to get worse before they get better and you are probably going to lose more friends before you actually realize who your true friends really are.
As I told you before, surround yourself with friends that don't need nothing from you and are positive. You will be fine! I know. Good Karma out, Good Karma back in.
In conclusion, to all my friends that have been reading this, Have a Happy and Healthy Holiday and New Year!!!!
There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I have found that focusing with sincere emotion on something you want usually results in that energy providing you with what you are asking for from the start. I also notice that saying some things over and over again increase the energy to your request every time you say it.
I know why prayers are said over and over again. It brings a sense of peace to the one that is praying. That sense is in fact an energy. To re-focus one's energy on something new is a task in itself. It is a new beginning with new obstacles to overcome.
I have this friend that has found that things around her have been deteriorating little by little. She has been forced to say goodbye to a few friends and that alone has made her sad. The aura that has set around her is one of a negative branding.
It is described as Karma. What you put out in the world comes back to you. People often take advantage of friends and they don't realize that they are damaging, not only their relationship, but the energies surrounding them as well.
I found myself in a similar predicament while I was still married. It was obvious what the ex-wife was doing and , even though we won't specifically talk about that, there was a fog of negativity in my home.
It was about 12 midnight. My ex-wife was out partying as usual with those friends that just wanted her to hang out. I went to my window that faces the river and I began to pray. I didn't pray the "Our Father" or any other set prayers. I simply stood there talking to God.
I wept, I laughed and I prayed. I prayed with sincere and powerful emotion and I asked the Almighty to remove all the negativity out of my life. I even asked that if that meant my wife had to go, then so be it. I was hoping that he would just set my Ex-wife on the right family path but instead, 9 days later, she was gone.
I was a pain that I thought I wouldn't be able to handle but I did. I moved on. I have never been such at peace as I am now. Don't get me wrong, I know I must forgive her but it's not time yet. I wish her the best and I bless her at night but I'm not ready yet. Soon. I hope.
In the past 3 years, I have lost friendships that went as far back as 30+ years. Friends that I would have given my life for. Friends, who's true colors came out when, I either needed them or they would throw me in front of the bus to impress another friend.
It's unfortunate but it's true. I love each and every one of them but I needed that negativity out. Se la vie. I'm just writing today, I guess to convince myself that I am on the right track. My kids are great and all is good in the Bravo household. A little lonely as usual but hey, God is good and he will provide.
Back to my friend. My advise to you is simple. Things are going to get worse before they get better and you are probably going to lose more friends before you actually realize who your true friends really are.
As I told you before, surround yourself with friends that don't need nothing from you and are positive. You will be fine! I know. Good Karma out, Good Karma back in.
In conclusion, to all my friends that have been reading this, Have a Happy and Healthy Holiday and New Year!!!!
Thursday, December 20, 2012
12/21/12 Put yourself at ease!! Read
Hey everybody!
the Hebrew calendar it's the year 5768
I just spent twenty minutes explaining to my children that the world will not end on 12/21/12. A task which is not that easy. I figured this would be a great time to put some at ease with this blog today as well.
Here is my first issue:
ready? okay! it may be the year 2012 for us but for:
the Hebrew calendar it's the year 5768
.
the Chinese calendar it's the year 4706
the Chinese calendar it's the year 4706
.
the reformed Indian calendar it's the year 1929.
the Muslim Calendar it's the year 2987.
the Persian calendar it's the year 1386.
the Thereveda Buddhist calendar it's the year 2551.
Whose to say that any of our calendars are right? If that's the case most of them have already past 2012.
Nothing happened right?
According to the research that I have done:
the Mayans never predicted that this is the end of the world. They, In fact, would have considered it an honor
to witness the calendar turn over. Once the calendar finishes the "Mayan Long Count" on the wheel, they just
start it over again. Much like our own Gregorian Calender ends 12/31 then begins a new calendar on 01/01.
For my friends that call themselves "Christians", I say unto
you, Nor the Angels in heaven or the Son knows when the
end will come. Only the Father. Matthew 24 35-36
5 Now, brothers and sisters, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night.
There will be no polarity shifts. that takes 5000 -10,000 years to happen.
Although I believe that we are at the beginning of the end, I'm sure that there are more things to happen before it's time.
So, please don't lose any sleep over this. I'm sure most of you realize that it has been the 21st in other parts of the world already for more than 1/2 a day! What makes us so special that it has to end with us?
If you still feel like that then write all your valuables to me. I need a car and some cash.
Enjoy your day people and have a great nights sleep!
Friday, December 14, 2012
What reason does he have for letting this happen?
This world never ceases to amaze me. that's not necessarily a good thing. These killings in Ct shouldn't have never happened. These children, CHILDREN, didn't deserve to be cut down this early in life.
The coward took his own life after he killed 27 people, 18 of which were children. What can we do to prevent this from ever happening again. Stronger gun control laws. Tell Clint Eastwood to retire already! Tell Charleston Heston to mind his fucking business. It's not the colonial times where we have to defend out country on farmlands.
Target shooting? With Automatic machine guns?! That's an animal right there!!! I'm legitimately scared! How am i going to feel when my children go to school on Monday? I wonder if they are going to have some counseling for the children that ask about the CT murders?
Here is my prayer to God for the victims:
Heavenly Father Almighty God, on this solemn day and hour I ask and pray that you bring comfort to the
families of this horrific tragedy. That you send your angels not only to accompany those that passed, those that
survived. To bring comfort and security to the children that are witnesses. Father accept the victims into your
arms so that they may be with you in the kingdom of heaven forever and ever! In Jesus' Almighty Name!
AMEN. (We Pray)
I can't imagine what these families are going thru. I often hear that God does things "For a
reason". What reason does he have for letting this happen?
The coward took his own life after he killed 27 people, 18 of which were children. What can we do to prevent this from ever happening again. Stronger gun control laws. Tell Clint Eastwood to retire already! Tell Charleston Heston to mind his fucking business. It's not the colonial times where we have to defend out country on farmlands.
Target shooting? With Automatic machine guns?! That's an animal right there!!! I'm legitimately scared! How am i going to feel when my children go to school on Monday? I wonder if they are going to have some counseling for the children that ask about the CT murders?
Here is my prayer to God for the victims:
Heavenly Father Almighty God, on this solemn day and hour I ask and pray that you bring comfort to the
families of this horrific tragedy. That you send your angels not only to accompany those that passed, those that
survived. To bring comfort and security to the children that are witnesses. Father accept the victims into your
arms so that they may be with you in the kingdom of heaven forever and ever! In Jesus' Almighty Name!
AMEN. (We Pray)
I can't imagine what these families are going thru. I often hear that God does things "For a
reason". What reason does he have for letting this happen?
Saturday, November 24, 2012
"Is there any way a person can get out of the "Buddy", "Amigo" or "Friend" Zone?"
Sometimes I have to laugh. I posted a question on facebook yesterday and the reactions were informative. The question was: "Is there any way a person can get out of the "Buddy", "Amigo" or "Friend" Zone?" Many responses and the reality is that the question was not for me.
I mean, I asked that question for two reasons, 1. I wanted to get a good conversation going. ( It's been a while!) 2. A friend asked me and I didn't have the answer for him. I had to pose the question as if it were mine because if he did it, the girl would know.
For some reason, I like doing these things for my friends. Even though I probably put myself in situations with others, I often find myself having to explain. Like I'm doing now. The responses were great but it didn't help him. He lost her as a friend because he is too embarrassed to be around her.
What's worse is that I believe someone misconstrued OUR friendship because she probably read the question and thought it was her. I hope that was not the case but nevertheless, I have to make sure she knows it wasn't her.
Most people that know me, know that I am now getting used to being alone. I am enjoying it immensely. I am now definitely sure that I am not ready for a relationship. Many of my friends agree to that even tho I am separated for the last 2 1/2 years.
The truth of the matter is that I am lacking in "Physical" communications (Wink Wink!) but other than that, I'm great! With the help of a few of my close friends, I've been able to take back what my ex-wife took from me. My self-esteem and I'm happier for it.
I'm ready to move on with my play by making it first to a indie film and I am still raising my kids which, coincidentally, would probably be a factor in me dating someone. You know, "baggage" and all. Admittedly, there are a few facebook friends that I would like to get to know a little better but I know it would be harder to work out.
I keep it simple and usually wait for the woman to flirt or make her move therefore giving me the option of "yes" or "no". It may sound a little vain but when it comes to rejection, I can get depressed and I've had it being in that state of mind. I'm done with that.
To those that read my blog. I appreciate you reading it and getting to know me more than the others that don't read it. I enjoy writing it when I can and I will continue to do so. I want to finish by saying that, usually, my private life is just that "Private". I hope when "It" finally happens I will be able to keep it between the woman and myself.
LOL.....Any takers?
x
I mean, I asked that question for two reasons, 1. I wanted to get a good conversation going. ( It's been a while!) 2. A friend asked me and I didn't have the answer for him. I had to pose the question as if it were mine because if he did it, the girl would know.
For some reason, I like doing these things for my friends. Even though I probably put myself in situations with others, I often find myself having to explain. Like I'm doing now. The responses were great but it didn't help him. He lost her as a friend because he is too embarrassed to be around her.
What's worse is that I believe someone misconstrued OUR friendship because she probably read the question and thought it was her. I hope that was not the case but nevertheless, I have to make sure she knows it wasn't her.
Most people that know me, know that I am now getting used to being alone. I am enjoying it immensely. I am now definitely sure that I am not ready for a relationship. Many of my friends agree to that even tho I am separated for the last 2 1/2 years.
The truth of the matter is that I am lacking in "Physical" communications (Wink Wink!) but other than that, I'm great! With the help of a few of my close friends, I've been able to take back what my ex-wife took from me. My self-esteem and I'm happier for it.
I'm ready to move on with my play by making it first to a indie film and I am still raising my kids which, coincidentally, would probably be a factor in me dating someone. You know, "baggage" and all. Admittedly, there are a few facebook friends that I would like to get to know a little better but I know it would be harder to work out.
I keep it simple and usually wait for the woman to flirt or make her move therefore giving me the option of "yes" or "no". It may sound a little vain but when it comes to rejection, I can get depressed and I've had it being in that state of mind. I'm done with that.
To those that read my blog. I appreciate you reading it and getting to know me more than the others that don't read it. I enjoy writing it when I can and I will continue to do so. I want to finish by saying that, usually, my private life is just that "Private". I hope when "It" finally happens I will be able to keep it between the woman and myself.
LOL.....Any takers?
x
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Just stirring up the minds! (Freedom of Speech)
Today, I would like to discuss freedom of speech. But I would like to discuss both sides. It would be hypocritical to defend this right, for example, if you have a problem with anyone making racists remarks.
I honestly believe that our forefathers, as ignorant as some of them were, were on the right track in allowing of free citizen to say whatever he wants to say without persecution. Unfortunately, they would have never been able to predict how our speech patterns affect our lives today.
Back then, it was okay to use the words "Nigger" or "Unclean" when describing a person of color/slave. They didn't consider the slaves anywhere near human to think of them as equals. The utmost in ignorance a human being can be.
To me, people are human. That is the race I see. "If you cut us, do we not bleed?" Our founding fathers and subsequently, their immediate ancestors attempted to continue their ignorance for years to come after the constitution was signed.
Fortunately, to that end, we were blessed with a President with enough foresight and compassion to recognize the true spirit of the preamble, "That all men are created equal". He was the major part of freeing the slaves and stepping us forward into a slave free society.
This brings me to today's society. As disgusting as this may sound, shouldn't you be able to say whatever you want in this country? Is it illegal, for example, to say in basic conversation, something like "Black people should know their place in this country"? Should it matter if it was said deep in redneck "Bama" country or in the state of Maine?
Doesn't the constitution grant us the "Unconditional" right to that freedom? To say whatever the hell we want? Since the construction of that right, there have been many amendments added to it. (I'm assuming now.) Our freedom of speech doesn't grant the right to yell "FIRE!" in a crowded movie theater.
Nor does it allow to place anyone's life in danger because of the words used. Placing restrictions on our speech, to me, nullifies that freedom and we are no longer free to say what we want. I personally enjoy this freedom. For if it didn't exist, I wouldn't have been able to even write this blog.
"Hate" crimes are my biggest argument. When a "White" person beats someone while using prejudiced remarks, when caught, he goes to jail charged with a hate crime in which his penalties are about 10X worse then what they would be had he kept his mouth shut.
Please answer me this question because I truly don't know the answer. Does it go down as a "hate" crime if the roles were reversed and you hear "Honky or cracker" as they beat a white man down? I hate to ask but doesn't EVERYBODY have the right to say what they want even if they are in a heated debate or fight?
Throughout this whole blog, I've been laughing because even though it's all truly stupid, it's funny to me because it's true. i love playing devils advocate and placing minds to work. I've come to the conclusion that EVERYBODY is a racist, one way or another.
You can have opinions against, Races, classes, genders, fashion statements and even intelligence. It's all about ignorance, how we think and what we are allowed to say. I remember being called a spic when I was younger. It was when I lived in Massachusetts for a spell and I was one of five different races in a junior high school.
I hated it but I ate it. What got me more upset was that a girl made fun of my NY accent in class. i just wanted to punch her at her throat. (This was all before I went to Seward and learned to protect myself with words!) According to our forefathers, It was legal to be called a Spic and that girl had every right to make fun of me.
I'm just saying that no one can actually say they are "Free" in this country or anywhere else for that matter. God bless you all and thanks for reading! Remember, just my opinion. If you don't like what I said, don't read it anymore. 1st amendment!!!! LOL
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Lead by example, PLEASE!
This post will be a little different than all the others. This post will definitely offend most people but as usual I don't care. As usual I have taken on my new philosophy that I will do and say what I want because I can. And, I feel good about it.
I read a post the other day about how women, being mothers, post really sexy and dirty pictures of themselves on facebook. The comment was chastising these women because the children can see these photos and think its okay. I totally agree with the comment.
If you are a parent, you must lead by example. They think of themselves before thinking of their children. Would you want your daughters disrespected in the streets or on some social network because they post half nude pictures of themselves?
What kind of person does that? I have to say that it works both ways too. As I was coming home, I saw a young couple walking with a baby stroller. They had to be about 15-16 years old. The father walking next to, what I am going to assume was the baby's mama, look like he was pure street.
That didn't bother me. I felt so bad for the child when I saw him sagging to the back of his knees! What kind of example are you going to show your son or daughter? All that is over when you become a parent. The chain has to stop at one point or another!
You're going to teach your children tradition that was born in the hollow halls of jails? Why would you do that? I understand that young people today have to find their own identities but why not find a positive, respectful one? How you perceive yourself is exactly how people see you.
I'm not going to lie. I had my own fads in high school. Some of them included straight legs, Adidas lace in checkerboard, kangos, on and on but the moment my son was born, I gave it all up and I started living for me. I must say I was 29 when he was born but that didn't change a thing.
I thanked God for him and changed my whole outlook on life. My son was and will be a reflection of me. He is now, at 16, respectful of others and himself. He doesn't do drugs or drinks and all because I changed my lifestyle.
It's not just my son, I have nephews and nieces that I need them to see that I am a great uncle. They love me and come to me for advise and jokes and time with them. I'm happy I am able to provide that for them.
Finally, and I think this will be the big one, there is a difference between casual drinking and just being obnoxious about the whole thing. I know people that hang out to the point of not remembering the night before. These are probably the same people that question their teenagers when they get home an hour late smelling like beer or herb.
Again, the children are products of the parents. Going out, every freaking weekend, to drink and act like fools, in my opinion, isn't cool. You guys give the term alcoholic a new name! You come up with ANY reason to go hang out! I'm just saying, you guys are old enough to know better.
I'm not saying that I am better than you. I've done my mis-deeds plenty of times. That is one of the reasons why I have no sense of smell! I'm just saying, at what point in your life do you look in the mirror and say to yourself, "That's enough!"
Drinking doesn't get rid of your problems, it just delays them. Yes, you get a buzz or an outright high but, the reality is, it doesn't last long. For me to survive on a daily basis, I have to take 13 pills a day. I'm not proud of it but it all stemmed from what I used to do.
I think that I've written all these words because I truly love and care about some of you and I want you to be happy in your life. A life that your kids can be proud of. A safe and healthy life that can be extended for a long time.
"Thirsty Thursdays, Fallout Friday's, Stunk drunk Saturdays" Whatever you want to call them, it all boils down to the same thing. Talk about a rut! It's truly sad to hear that a friend has passed away because they had cirrhosis of the liver or because they got into an accident while intoxicated.
I lost a good friend because he got drunk and broke his neck. He was a para for years until it was time. If he were here today, he would be cursing everybody out! He was just that type of guy. He would be shaking his head at all the idiots out there.
I say this because I care. You can take this advise and throw it out like an old newspaper or you can learn from other peoples mistakes. As far as the young people, understand that EVERYBODY gets old, oh and don't get upset when the cops profile you and harass you simply because you are sagging or dealing or drinking a beer.
That's just part of life, right? You and your bad self! Remember, this is just one man's opinion. I'm sure that many agree with me and many don't. I really don't care, it's just something I'd thought I had to say. Have a great one!
I read a post the other day about how women, being mothers, post really sexy and dirty pictures of themselves on facebook. The comment was chastising these women because the children can see these photos and think its okay. I totally agree with the comment.
If you are a parent, you must lead by example. They think of themselves before thinking of their children. Would you want your daughters disrespected in the streets or on some social network because they post half nude pictures of themselves?
What kind of person does that? I have to say that it works both ways too. As I was coming home, I saw a young couple walking with a baby stroller. They had to be about 15-16 years old. The father walking next to, what I am going to assume was the baby's mama, look like he was pure street.
That didn't bother me. I felt so bad for the child when I saw him sagging to the back of his knees! What kind of example are you going to show your son or daughter? All that is over when you become a parent. The chain has to stop at one point or another!
You're going to teach your children tradition that was born in the hollow halls of jails? Why would you do that? I understand that young people today have to find their own identities but why not find a positive, respectful one? How you perceive yourself is exactly how people see you.
I'm not going to lie. I had my own fads in high school. Some of them included straight legs, Adidas lace in checkerboard, kangos, on and on but the moment my son was born, I gave it all up and I started living for me. I must say I was 29 when he was born but that didn't change a thing.
I thanked God for him and changed my whole outlook on life. My son was and will be a reflection of me. He is now, at 16, respectful of others and himself. He doesn't do drugs or drinks and all because I changed my lifestyle.
It's not just my son, I have nephews and nieces that I need them to see that I am a great uncle. They love me and come to me for advise and jokes and time with them. I'm happy I am able to provide that for them.
Finally, and I think this will be the big one, there is a difference between casual drinking and just being obnoxious about the whole thing. I know people that hang out to the point of not remembering the night before. These are probably the same people that question their teenagers when they get home an hour late smelling like beer or herb.
Again, the children are products of the parents. Going out, every freaking weekend, to drink and act like fools, in my opinion, isn't cool. You guys give the term alcoholic a new name! You come up with ANY reason to go hang out! I'm just saying, you guys are old enough to know better.
I'm not saying that I am better than you. I've done my mis-deeds plenty of times. That is one of the reasons why I have no sense of smell! I'm just saying, at what point in your life do you look in the mirror and say to yourself, "That's enough!"
Drinking doesn't get rid of your problems, it just delays them. Yes, you get a buzz or an outright high but, the reality is, it doesn't last long. For me to survive on a daily basis, I have to take 13 pills a day. I'm not proud of it but it all stemmed from what I used to do.
I think that I've written all these words because I truly love and care about some of you and I want you to be happy in your life. A life that your kids can be proud of. A safe and healthy life that can be extended for a long time.
"Thirsty Thursdays, Fallout Friday's, Stunk drunk Saturdays" Whatever you want to call them, it all boils down to the same thing. Talk about a rut! It's truly sad to hear that a friend has passed away because they had cirrhosis of the liver or because they got into an accident while intoxicated.
I lost a good friend because he got drunk and broke his neck. He was a para for years until it was time. If he were here today, he would be cursing everybody out! He was just that type of guy. He would be shaking his head at all the idiots out there.
I say this because I care. You can take this advise and throw it out like an old newspaper or you can learn from other peoples mistakes. As far as the young people, understand that EVERYBODY gets old, oh and don't get upset when the cops profile you and harass you simply because you are sagging or dealing or drinking a beer.
That's just part of life, right? You and your bad self! Remember, this is just one man's opinion. I'm sure that many agree with me and many don't. I really don't care, it's just something I'd thought I had to say. Have a great one!
Monday, October 15, 2012
Energies
Every once in a while, I get deep in thought and conversation and I want to talk about things that are not to be talked about. Such as religion, politics and so forth. Today I want to talk about how I feel about spirituality.
It is important that those that read this understand that it is my opinion and it doesn't reflect on anything or anybody in the subject matter.
When asked about my religion I find it hard to answer. There is no name for what I believe in. I've probably spoken about this before but I want to make certain that it is said. Maybe, others can understand their confusion when they read what I have to say.
To me, spirituality is all about energies. The energies we put out in the world, the energies that come back to us and the energies that are already out there. Everybody feels them and rely on them. Faith and hope are energies. Positive ones. Love and Loyalty are also positive energies.
Believe it or not, every religion has these energies and they are identified with certain names but they are still the same. In the Christian beliefs, the great energies are God and the Almighty Father Jesus Christ. Let's not forget the Holy Spirit which in itself is obviously an energy.
When we pray, we call upon these energies to come down and protect us, find love for us, keep us moving. For something that is asked, the energy is there. The truer you feel about it, the more possible will be the results.
We have negative energies as well. Some call them the "Enemy", the devil or evil spirits. It has to be named to determine the differences when they appear. Lust, Envy, Jealousy, the list goes on and on.
Some people can manipulate these negative energies with their minds just by thinking bad about someone. I've seen it happen. I've said, "I hope she falls on her face", out of anger and right in front of me, the woman fell and hurt herself. i was happy at the time it happened but then I felt bad.
Thoughts like that can be transmitted and they work. You have to believe. I've noticed that persons looking for help from God, have changed the way they think and are.
Having done that, their lives have dramatically changed. They see a future and feel that God has stepped in and helped them. It's wonderful when someone connects with themselves and their God. Whomever it may be.
The other day, I was reading that a Facebook friend posted that he is an Atheist. The post stated that he didn't want to answer any questions as to why he is one and yet, if you kept reading, he explains the reasons he is one. I find that a little hypocritical. If you want to make a statement like that, more power to you but, just like you don't want to hear that I believe in God, I don't want to hear that you don't.
There are boundaries that need to be respected and I hope that by me saying so, they will be. If you are deep into your religion, God Bless you. If you are a lapsed ANYTHING, God bless you. Just understand that being human in itself means that there is energy within you.
As you live your life, you learn that Karma does exist and that it's inevitable. We all know that Karma is the energy you put out that will ABSOLUTELY come back to you 7 fold. If you do good, you will be good. If you do bad, you will get whats coming to you.
The Christians have it from the bible, "Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord!" The Buddhist believe in Karma, either in this life or the next. Again, It's all about energy. When I pray, I pray to God the Father. Sometimes I say the prayer that was taught to me and other times I just speak to him.
I thank him for all that he has given me. I ask him to continue to protect and keep safe my children. I also ask him to bring joy to them because they have suffered enough. In asking this, I have changed my attitude and that has helped me a long way too.
I have removed/limited those friends that ALWAYS bring negativity to every situation. Those that prefer to TRY to run your life instead of dealing with their own problems. Those that tell you to drink and be merry when you don't drink or smoke. those that put you down and believe that they are better than you. I worry about people like that.
Keeping them at a distance makes me know who my friends really are. The positive energy known as the Holy Spirit has guided me to where I am today. So in conclusion, Be careful of your true intentions for when they are let out, they may affect you in ways that you weren't expecting.
I send great positive energy to those that read this. No offense but "God Bless all".
It is important that those that read this understand that it is my opinion and it doesn't reflect on anything or anybody in the subject matter.
When asked about my religion I find it hard to answer. There is no name for what I believe in. I've probably spoken about this before but I want to make certain that it is said. Maybe, others can understand their confusion when they read what I have to say.
To me, spirituality is all about energies. The energies we put out in the world, the energies that come back to us and the energies that are already out there. Everybody feels them and rely on them. Faith and hope are energies. Positive ones. Love and Loyalty are also positive energies.
Believe it or not, every religion has these energies and they are identified with certain names but they are still the same. In the Christian beliefs, the great energies are God and the Almighty Father Jesus Christ. Let's not forget the Holy Spirit which in itself is obviously an energy.
When we pray, we call upon these energies to come down and protect us, find love for us, keep us moving. For something that is asked, the energy is there. The truer you feel about it, the more possible will be the results.
We have negative energies as well. Some call them the "Enemy", the devil or evil spirits. It has to be named to determine the differences when they appear. Lust, Envy, Jealousy, the list goes on and on.
Some people can manipulate these negative energies with their minds just by thinking bad about someone. I've seen it happen. I've said, "I hope she falls on her face", out of anger and right in front of me, the woman fell and hurt herself. i was happy at the time it happened but then I felt bad.
Thoughts like that can be transmitted and they work. You have to believe. I've noticed that persons looking for help from God, have changed the way they think and are.
Having done that, their lives have dramatically changed. They see a future and feel that God has stepped in and helped them. It's wonderful when someone connects with themselves and their God. Whomever it may be.
The other day, I was reading that a Facebook friend posted that he is an Atheist. The post stated that he didn't want to answer any questions as to why he is one and yet, if you kept reading, he explains the reasons he is one. I find that a little hypocritical. If you want to make a statement like that, more power to you but, just like you don't want to hear that I believe in God, I don't want to hear that you don't.
There are boundaries that need to be respected and I hope that by me saying so, they will be. If you are deep into your religion, God Bless you. If you are a lapsed ANYTHING, God bless you. Just understand that being human in itself means that there is energy within you.
As you live your life, you learn that Karma does exist and that it's inevitable. We all know that Karma is the energy you put out that will ABSOLUTELY come back to you 7 fold. If you do good, you will be good. If you do bad, you will get whats coming to you.
The Christians have it from the bible, "Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord!" The Buddhist believe in Karma, either in this life or the next. Again, It's all about energy. When I pray, I pray to God the Father. Sometimes I say the prayer that was taught to me and other times I just speak to him.
I thank him for all that he has given me. I ask him to continue to protect and keep safe my children. I also ask him to bring joy to them because they have suffered enough. In asking this, I have changed my attitude and that has helped me a long way too.
I have removed/limited those friends that ALWAYS bring negativity to every situation. Those that prefer to TRY to run your life instead of dealing with their own problems. Those that tell you to drink and be merry when you don't drink or smoke. those that put you down and believe that they are better than you. I worry about people like that.
Keeping them at a distance makes me know who my friends really are. The positive energy known as the Holy Spirit has guided me to where I am today. So in conclusion, Be careful of your true intentions for when they are let out, they may affect you in ways that you weren't expecting.
I send great positive energy to those that read this. No offense but "God Bless all".
Saturday, September 8, 2012
I am so tired of people telling me what to do! C'mon people, live your own life and leave me alone. I mean, don't you have better things to do than to live the life of another? My family has yelled at me. my friends have yelled at me.
If there is ONE person out there that has a perfect life, even they don't have the right to tell me what to do. it's like I'm in high school again and I have to be careful what I say or do or others will be offended by my words/actions.
Get over yourself!
If there is ONE person out there that has a perfect life, even they don't have the right to tell me what to do. it's like I'm in high school again and I have to be careful what I say or do or others will be offended by my words/actions.
Get over yourself!
Friday, September 7, 2012
"Judge not less thee be judged"
I've been reading a lot of signs on facebook. Most of them are about how one should judge themselves first before judging other people. Or like the bible says, "Judge not less thee be judged." It's a very interesting quote and what what it more interesting, to me at least, is that I don't think that anyone can go thru life not judging.
I mean, really think about it. you go to the bodega and you see the guy behind the counter. He has a serious face so you know that he is not one to talk to and joke around with. Your judging him has made you come to that conclusion.
You see a woman walking in the street and she has her make-up all wrong for her face, if you are a woman you think what an idiot, she don't know how to fix herself up. If you are a man, you might think that she looks like a whore. Either way, judgement is being brought upon her.
I think that people are naturally judgmental and the outcome solely is determined by the way that individual was raised. What one person may think is right, the other will think it's wrong. I judge people naturally. I try to look for the good positive outlooks in a person and focus on their inner beauty but sometimes, I see something that I just don't like and I judge on it.
It provides me with a guide on how to live my life. On how to know which people I want to associate myself with and which people are just bad for me. THAT'S mission impossible. To go thru life not judging people.
I noticed this the other day. Even tho it is very hard to admit it, the racists and other bullies have every right to speak their minds. We don't have to like it but we judge them for their opinions. It's the ignorance that has been forced into them by someone important in their lives and it becomes their guides.
It's unfortunate that a gay basher has the right to make fun or poke at the gay community just like an African American has the right to poke at Whitey. These are all judgments one makes but at what point does it matter to stop?
As I watch the shows cops or bait car, I see that young African American men and boys are the ones that are doing the crime. Should I overlook that they are black and give them the benefit of the doubt? Should I put aside that 98% of them are sagging and that's another reason they probably get profiled?
They get caught and complain that they have been profiled. Hello? Is anyone home? You fit the profile and did the crime, what more do you want? It's just another way of being judged. It's all very simple.
You cannot live in this world without be judgmental. It's just the way of life. Some use it as a defense mechanism, others use it as a deterrent to focus on others and not them and some use it as a guide for life. So, even tho I agree with the bible, "Judge not less thee be judged" theory, there is no other alternative than to do it naturally. God Bless All.
I mean, really think about it. you go to the bodega and you see the guy behind the counter. He has a serious face so you know that he is not one to talk to and joke around with. Your judging him has made you come to that conclusion.
You see a woman walking in the street and she has her make-up all wrong for her face, if you are a woman you think what an idiot, she don't know how to fix herself up. If you are a man, you might think that she looks like a whore. Either way, judgement is being brought upon her.
I think that people are naturally judgmental and the outcome solely is determined by the way that individual was raised. What one person may think is right, the other will think it's wrong. I judge people naturally. I try to look for the good positive outlooks in a person and focus on their inner beauty but sometimes, I see something that I just don't like and I judge on it.
It provides me with a guide on how to live my life. On how to know which people I want to associate myself with and which people are just bad for me. THAT'S mission impossible. To go thru life not judging people.
I noticed this the other day. Even tho it is very hard to admit it, the racists and other bullies have every right to speak their minds. We don't have to like it but we judge them for their opinions. It's the ignorance that has been forced into them by someone important in their lives and it becomes their guides.
It's unfortunate that a gay basher has the right to make fun or poke at the gay community just like an African American has the right to poke at Whitey. These are all judgments one makes but at what point does it matter to stop?
As I watch the shows cops or bait car, I see that young African American men and boys are the ones that are doing the crime. Should I overlook that they are black and give them the benefit of the doubt? Should I put aside that 98% of them are sagging and that's another reason they probably get profiled?
They get caught and complain that they have been profiled. Hello? Is anyone home? You fit the profile and did the crime, what more do you want? It's just another way of being judged. It's all very simple.
You cannot live in this world without be judgmental. It's just the way of life. Some use it as a defense mechanism, others use it as a deterrent to focus on others and not them and some use it as a guide for life. So, even tho I agree with the bible, "Judge not less thee be judged" theory, there is no other alternative than to do it naturally. God Bless All.
Friday, August 10, 2012
I am THAT man......
I am THAT man......
The man that you take 2 to 3 hours getting ready for your date. The man that you want to impress with or with out make-up with all your heart.
I am THAT man......
The man that without any reservation, will respect you always, whether it be in the morning or not. The man the will never abuse of what you have.
I am THAT man.....
The man that will shower you with unnecessary compliments for you know he loves you. The man that will let you know everything will be alright.
I am THAT man.....
The man that after two weeks you want to introduce to your parents/children.
I am That man.....
The man that will never judge you and once you have attained my heart, will never let you go.
I am THAT man.....
The man that his face lights up like the sun when he speaks of you whether you are around him or not.
I am THAT man.....
The man that would rather get cut through his heart than to lie to you and cause you ANY kind of pain.
I am THAT man.....
The man that at the end of it all, you will stand proud to have known and loved.
For those that know me, know this to be true. I will now and forever be.....
THAT MAN.
The man that you take 2 to 3 hours getting ready for your date. The man that you want to impress with or with out make-up with all your heart.
I am THAT man......
The man that without any reservation, will respect you always, whether it be in the morning or not. The man the will never abuse of what you have.
I am THAT man.....
The man that will shower you with unnecessary compliments for you know he loves you. The man that will let you know everything will be alright.
I am THAT man.....
The man that after two weeks you want to introduce to your parents/children.
I am That man.....
The man that will never judge you and once you have attained my heart, will never let you go.
I am THAT man.....
The man that his face lights up like the sun when he speaks of you whether you are around him or not.
I am THAT man.....
The man that would rather get cut through his heart than to lie to you and cause you ANY kind of pain.
I am THAT man.....
The man that at the end of it all, you will stand proud to have known and loved.
For those that know me, know this to be true. I will now and forever be.....
THAT MAN.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Why didn't you fight?
It's very rare that I speak my "Actual" mind. I sometimes write thoughts that pop into my head or situations that happen to me and I feel I need to say how I feel about that. Today's post will give you an idea of why I'm having a hard time moving on.
The idea of marriage, growing up, was taboo to me. I couldn't see myself doing it because my mom had thrown out my dad when I was 3 years old and it just didn't seem like something I wanted to do. As I grew up, I changed opinions often, rocking back and forth from a "maybe" to a definite "no".
I began to date and life was good. I lost my virginity later than my friends, even tho I believe my friends were ho's, I wanted it to be just right. But let me tell you! Once I had my first taste of it, I was done. Forget the rest, Getting ass was my main priority.
Late teens and early 20's were the best for me. I enjoyed them very much but I decided that I wasn't going to get married. I can actually say, I've done it all. No regrets. Just heartbreak and lessons learned.
The problem was that while, most of my friends had young parents that were divorcing left and right. I was being raised by my grandfather. All that I am, morals and values, is thanks to him. A man that was loyal, honest and strong. A man that made his marriage work regardless of what happens.
It was great to see what he thought marriage was about. The relationship he had with my grandmother and the "Old School" style of living. My grandmother would have his dinner ready when he came from work. He would get his slippers and he would call me to watch M*A*S*H with him and other old movies that made him laugh.
See, now there was a perfect example for me to follow. He loved my grandmother so much. You can tell just by looking at the way they looked at each other. Since then, I based what I would be as a husband and father by his virtues. I would never even consider divorce because that was not in my vocabulary.
To enforce my thought, even after having deposited a lot of money on the reception and church etc..... I called my fiancee (at the time) the day before our wedding and I told her that I was giving her the out. In other words, if she feels that she won't be able to stay with me the rest of our lives then she can just get up and leave. I would understand. I also told her that I wasn't getting divorced.
She responded with, "Honey, I love you so much! I would never leave you. I can't wait to be Mrs. Kenneth Bravo." Having said that she made me feel better and she removed any little doubt that I had left in me. I was happy.
At this point I will say that life sucks and I find it very hard to trust anyone. The person I thought would be with me forever, just decided that it was over. How did she do that? I guess she thought she found someone else to love.
Now, I'm not going to say that I was innocent in this situation, however, whatever I did wrong, I would love to know because I seriously have no idea. She could never come and tell me how I merited being cheated on. I write this blog because it upsets me that she NEVER fought for our relationship.
16 years together and even after I took her back the first time she played me, she still never fought for us. Thank God he sent me the foresight to apply for custody of my children because they would be suffering more.
Yes. I am angry. Some of my "Friends" tell me to get over it. Well, I can honestly say this to those that it pertains to. FUCK YOU! Before you judge me and what I am going thru, look at yourself in the mirror and fix your problems. I'm sure you're going thru something as well. You know who you are!
Today's values are so fucked up that our children don't know right from wrong. Commitment is one of the most important values you can have. There is a reason why one of the vows was "For better or worse". If you loved me enough to marry me, why couldn't you at least try to make things work?
Yes. I am angry. my children suffer because this one woman, couldn't deal with having the responsibilities of a family, who loved her so much. She couldn't decide whether to go hang out with her girls or be with the family. I know she lost her mind. She now lives in Texas with a man that she first described to me as her cousin. While she was living with me of course! Karma has a funny way of getting to you and I feel sorry for her when Karma comes knocking on her door.
Why did I go thru all of this? I want to give whoever reads this a little note of counsel. If you are not ready to fight and love and commit to someone, don't get married. You deserve better and so does your partner.
In continuing being truthful, I still have a place for her in my heart. I believe I will always do. My fear is that the hatred she has formed in my soul for her will grow bigger and bigger and may consume me as a human being.
I don't want to hate. Well, Thanks for reading this. I hope you can pass the message forward.
The idea of marriage, growing up, was taboo to me. I couldn't see myself doing it because my mom had thrown out my dad when I was 3 years old and it just didn't seem like something I wanted to do. As I grew up, I changed opinions often, rocking back and forth from a "maybe" to a definite "no".
I began to date and life was good. I lost my virginity later than my friends, even tho I believe my friends were ho's, I wanted it to be just right. But let me tell you! Once I had my first taste of it, I was done. Forget the rest, Getting ass was my main priority.
Late teens and early 20's were the best for me. I enjoyed them very much but I decided that I wasn't going to get married. I can actually say, I've done it all. No regrets. Just heartbreak and lessons learned.
The problem was that while, most of my friends had young parents that were divorcing left and right. I was being raised by my grandfather. All that I am, morals and values, is thanks to him. A man that was loyal, honest and strong. A man that made his marriage work regardless of what happens.
It was great to see what he thought marriage was about. The relationship he had with my grandmother and the "Old School" style of living. My grandmother would have his dinner ready when he came from work. He would get his slippers and he would call me to watch M*A*S*H with him and other old movies that made him laugh.
See, now there was a perfect example for me to follow. He loved my grandmother so much. You can tell just by looking at the way they looked at each other. Since then, I based what I would be as a husband and father by his virtues. I would never even consider divorce because that was not in my vocabulary.
To enforce my thought, even after having deposited a lot of money on the reception and church etc..... I called my fiancee (at the time) the day before our wedding and I told her that I was giving her the out. In other words, if she feels that she won't be able to stay with me the rest of our lives then she can just get up and leave. I would understand. I also told her that I wasn't getting divorced.
She responded with, "Honey, I love you so much! I would never leave you. I can't wait to be Mrs. Kenneth Bravo." Having said that she made me feel better and she removed any little doubt that I had left in me. I was happy.
At this point I will say that life sucks and I find it very hard to trust anyone. The person I thought would be with me forever, just decided that it was over. How did she do that? I guess she thought she found someone else to love.
Now, I'm not going to say that I was innocent in this situation, however, whatever I did wrong, I would love to know because I seriously have no idea. She could never come and tell me how I merited being cheated on. I write this blog because it upsets me that she NEVER fought for our relationship.
16 years together and even after I took her back the first time she played me, she still never fought for us. Thank God he sent me the foresight to apply for custody of my children because they would be suffering more.
Yes. I am angry. Some of my "Friends" tell me to get over it. Well, I can honestly say this to those that it pertains to. FUCK YOU! Before you judge me and what I am going thru, look at yourself in the mirror and fix your problems. I'm sure you're going thru something as well. You know who you are!
Today's values are so fucked up that our children don't know right from wrong. Commitment is one of the most important values you can have. There is a reason why one of the vows was "For better or worse". If you loved me enough to marry me, why couldn't you at least try to make things work?
Yes. I am angry. my children suffer because this one woman, couldn't deal with having the responsibilities of a family, who loved her so much. She couldn't decide whether to go hang out with her girls or be with the family. I know she lost her mind. She now lives in Texas with a man that she first described to me as her cousin. While she was living with me of course! Karma has a funny way of getting to you and I feel sorry for her when Karma comes knocking on her door.
Why did I go thru all of this? I want to give whoever reads this a little note of counsel. If you are not ready to fight and love and commit to someone, don't get married. You deserve better and so does your partner.
In continuing being truthful, I still have a place for her in my heart. I believe I will always do. My fear is that the hatred she has formed in my soul for her will grow bigger and bigger and may consume me as a human being.
I don't want to hate. Well, Thanks for reading this. I hope you can pass the message forward.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
too much power
Today's subject is that of principal power. Yesterday, I picked up my daughter from school and she immediately showed me her shoes. They had broken from heel to toe and the sole was being held by about an inch of contact.
I sent her to school today and she wore sandals with her uniform. I figured since it was half a day and it was the second to last day of school, there will be no problems regarding the shoes. Little did I know that it was a problem.
I received a call this morning from the secretary and she told me that the principal asked that i bring her a pair of shoes because she was not allowed to wear sandals in school. I told her about the school shoes broken and she explained to the principal.
The principal did not budge. She said that if I don't send her the shoes, she will spend the rest of the day by the her office doing her school work. After relaying that to me, I told the secretary that I will be picking her up from school.
I've always respected rules because I believe that they are in place for a reason. I also believe that unless it has to do with life or death, rules can be bent a little to show consideration. If my little had no fault in the fact that her shoes broke, especially after a whole years usage, she should not have been singled out and separated from the others.
I picked her up and we had a daddy-daughter day. I took a step back to analyze why wouldn't the principal cut my daughter a break especially since the school year was technically done.
My conclusion, reputation is very important to her. She has to make sure that everyone knows that she is in charge. The problem with that is that the reputation also comes with a bad side and that bad side is the fact that she is heartless.
I was told that she was somewhat of a bitch even before I placed her in the school. I think that she enjoys being hated and thought of that way and relies on that to be respected. When it comes to her position, I feel that she has to be flexible.
I would rather be loved and respected than hated and feared. Unfortunately, my daughter will be missing an ice cream sundae party tomorrow because I don't have for the shoes right now.
I will make it up for her on Sunday when she comes back from visiting with her mom. I will not make a deal about this now but in September I will bring it up in conversation. More with honey than with vinegar.
I sent her to school today and she wore sandals with her uniform. I figured since it was half a day and it was the second to last day of school, there will be no problems regarding the shoes. Little did I know that it was a problem.
I received a call this morning from the secretary and she told me that the principal asked that i bring her a pair of shoes because she was not allowed to wear sandals in school. I told her about the school shoes broken and she explained to the principal.
The principal did not budge. She said that if I don't send her the shoes, she will spend the rest of the day by the her office doing her school work. After relaying that to me, I told the secretary that I will be picking her up from school.
I've always respected rules because I believe that they are in place for a reason. I also believe that unless it has to do with life or death, rules can be bent a little to show consideration. If my little had no fault in the fact that her shoes broke, especially after a whole years usage, she should not have been singled out and separated from the others.
I picked her up and we had a daddy-daughter day. I took a step back to analyze why wouldn't the principal cut my daughter a break especially since the school year was technically done.
My conclusion, reputation is very important to her. She has to make sure that everyone knows that she is in charge. The problem with that is that the reputation also comes with a bad side and that bad side is the fact that she is heartless.
I was told that she was somewhat of a bitch even before I placed her in the school. I think that she enjoys being hated and thought of that way and relies on that to be respected. When it comes to her position, I feel that she has to be flexible.
I would rather be loved and respected than hated and feared. Unfortunately, my daughter will be missing an ice cream sundae party tomorrow because I don't have for the shoes right now.
I will make it up for her on Sunday when she comes back from visiting with her mom. I will not make a deal about this now but in September I will bring it up in conversation. More with honey than with vinegar.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
"Beating around the bush"
Today I just wanted to touch base on the idea of "Beating around the bush". In all my years, I've learned how to accurately read people. Their body language, the speech patterns and obviously, even the faces one puts on can tell you exactly how they feel.
I find it harder, however, when I'm being text and/or talking on the phone because I can't see the person in front of me. So, like any other normal person, I come to assume what you are actually saying.
I speak to people often and find that they say one thing and mean another. Usually, the total opposite of how they really feel. That's okay but it definitely gets tiring and I know that some people use that as a defense mechanism because they have been hurt too many times in their lives.
Some few examples of what I mean, for instance, If I invite someone somewhere or make plans with them, I really look forward to those plans. I hear the enthusiasm in their voice and I even get more excited because it sounds like fun.
Unfortunately, in all the excitement the reality is that they were saying one thing and meaning another. They never confirm with you and when you finally get in touch with them, they made other plans. My question at this point is "Why lead me on?"
The truth is easier to handle so that I can make adjustments. I don't take anything to heart anymore except when that is done to me, I change my routine so that I fit you in and it messes me up. Don't lead me on if you are not going to go thru with it.
Another example is, when I speak to certain people on the phone or via text. They begin to tell me how they feel when I know that they are feeling the total opposite. Not only can I sense it, I can hear it as well. They want to tell me something but the guilt that they feel do not allow them to do so. It's either guilt or pride.
Either way, it's not a good thing. I totally believe in the truth. If you say what you feel from the get, the feelings would be less hurt. This "Beating around the bush" deal has got to stop. C'mon people, if you don't like me then say it and we will deal with that. And this definitely goes to some of my "So called friends" who look at me with one face and talk shit behind my back. I know it to be true just by the way you look at me, let alone the comments I get from people we know.
I lost a friendship that I had for 30 years. We were the best of friends and by saying one thing to me and then saying another to someone else, he took a chance at losing the friendship and lost. I miss my friend and for some reason lately I have been thinking about him. I would never speak about anybody badly to impress someone else. Anyway, it goes to show that you never know who's listening.
I wanted this to be short and sweet but I guess I just couldn't do it. LOL Put all your pride and guilt aside and say what's on your mind. If I am a true friend to you, you won't lose that. However, remember, it works both ways. If you can do it for me, I can do it for you and even though it may hurt at first, I would consider it the best for both of us.
Have a great day! #Speaking Truth!
I find it harder, however, when I'm being text and/or talking on the phone because I can't see the person in front of me. So, like any other normal person, I come to assume what you are actually saying.
I speak to people often and find that they say one thing and mean another. Usually, the total opposite of how they really feel. That's okay but it definitely gets tiring and I know that some people use that as a defense mechanism because they have been hurt too many times in their lives.
Some few examples of what I mean, for instance, If I invite someone somewhere or make plans with them, I really look forward to those plans. I hear the enthusiasm in their voice and I even get more excited because it sounds like fun.
Unfortunately, in all the excitement the reality is that they were saying one thing and meaning another. They never confirm with you and when you finally get in touch with them, they made other plans. My question at this point is "Why lead me on?"
The truth is easier to handle so that I can make adjustments. I don't take anything to heart anymore except when that is done to me, I change my routine so that I fit you in and it messes me up. Don't lead me on if you are not going to go thru with it.
Another example is, when I speak to certain people on the phone or via text. They begin to tell me how they feel when I know that they are feeling the total opposite. Not only can I sense it, I can hear it as well. They want to tell me something but the guilt that they feel do not allow them to do so. It's either guilt or pride.
Either way, it's not a good thing. I totally believe in the truth. If you say what you feel from the get, the feelings would be less hurt. This "Beating around the bush" deal has got to stop. C'mon people, if you don't like me then say it and we will deal with that. And this definitely goes to some of my "So called friends" who look at me with one face and talk shit behind my back. I know it to be true just by the way you look at me, let alone the comments I get from people we know.
I lost a friendship that I had for 30 years. We were the best of friends and by saying one thing to me and then saying another to someone else, he took a chance at losing the friendship and lost. I miss my friend and for some reason lately I have been thinking about him. I would never speak about anybody badly to impress someone else. Anyway, it goes to show that you never know who's listening.
I wanted this to be short and sweet but I guess I just couldn't do it. LOL Put all your pride and guilt aside and say what's on your mind. If I am a true friend to you, you won't lose that. However, remember, it works both ways. If you can do it for me, I can do it for you and even though it may hurt at first, I would consider it the best for both of us.
Have a great day! #Speaking Truth!
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Religion and Politics.
Wow! Where do I begin? I mean, my dear Grandfather always taught me never to argue those two topics because they could be deadly. I know he was referring to the topic of politics specifically because in Puerto Rico, if you say something wrong to the wrong party, you could die, quickly!
To give you a short scenario, I have a friend that just happens to be an ex, that is now a Jehovah's Witness. As usual, I respect all religions as long as you don't push yours on me. Anyway, we were having a great conversation until it went the wrong way, Religion.
I tried explaining to her that in "MY OPINION", I'm good with my feelings on religion. I know that God almighty loves me and that I will be saved as long as I believe and submit to Jesus Christ as my Savior. I try to treat others as they should be treated and I sincerely believe that all God wants for us is to be happy.
I know her intentions are good intentions and that she is just trying to help me, but I also know that she has been programmed to be the way she is when it comes to that. For some reason, however, I feel that she wants to break out of that position and be who she used to be herself and when she feels like she is about to stray, she quickly turns to the bible.
Of course, that's her decision. I respect that. But again, please don't get upset if I don't want to hear it. This lead to a very heated "Debate" and I attempted to end it as we usually do, let's "Agree to disagree" but for some reason this time, she refused. Don't know why.
Okay, for this one time, I will give you an idea of what my feelings are about religion. I was raised Catholic. Of course when I was younger it was the hip religion to be in. I didn't know better because I was a baby and a young lad in Catholic school.
After learning about different ones, I come to the conclusion that there has to be some sort of compromise in the middle. There is one constant in all religions and that is that there is ONE Supreme Being. Whether it is God, Allah, Jehovah, Buddha, etc....
The beliefs stand that you follow the teachings of this being. If you really look at it, the actual spirit of the Bible, Torah and so forth, say the same thing. "Treat others as you would want to be treated." That's why it's called the golden rule.
These Spirits/energies that we believe in are all around and have a tendency of making us feel good and leading us in the directions that we need to go. That is, of course, if you truly and honestly believe in them.
Yes, if you were to ask me what is my "Religion" I would answer Christian Catholic. I think I am, however, a freelance Christian Catholic and I enjoy it very much. More of a Charismatic Conservative if you will. If I can respect yours, please give me the courtesy of respecting mine.
"Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you"
As far as my friend, the JW. I will always love you for the friend that you are. I hope that this doesn't get you upset with me. Either way, I know where I stand. Thanks for listening, I enjoyed writing this entry.
To give you a short scenario, I have a friend that just happens to be an ex, that is now a Jehovah's Witness. As usual, I respect all religions as long as you don't push yours on me. Anyway, we were having a great conversation until it went the wrong way, Religion.
I tried explaining to her that in "MY OPINION", I'm good with my feelings on religion. I know that God almighty loves me and that I will be saved as long as I believe and submit to Jesus Christ as my Savior. I try to treat others as they should be treated and I sincerely believe that all God wants for us is to be happy.
I know her intentions are good intentions and that she is just trying to help me, but I also know that she has been programmed to be the way she is when it comes to that. For some reason, however, I feel that she wants to break out of that position and be who she used to be herself and when she feels like she is about to stray, she quickly turns to the bible.
Of course, that's her decision. I respect that. But again, please don't get upset if I don't want to hear it. This lead to a very heated "Debate" and I attempted to end it as we usually do, let's "Agree to disagree" but for some reason this time, she refused. Don't know why.
Okay, for this one time, I will give you an idea of what my feelings are about religion. I was raised Catholic. Of course when I was younger it was the hip religion to be in. I didn't know better because I was a baby and a young lad in Catholic school.
After learning about different ones, I come to the conclusion that there has to be some sort of compromise in the middle. There is one constant in all religions and that is that there is ONE Supreme Being. Whether it is God, Allah, Jehovah, Buddha, etc....
The beliefs stand that you follow the teachings of this being. If you really look at it, the actual spirit of the Bible, Torah and so forth, say the same thing. "Treat others as you would want to be treated." That's why it's called the golden rule.
These Spirits/energies that we believe in are all around and have a tendency of making us feel good and leading us in the directions that we need to go. That is, of course, if you truly and honestly believe in them.
Yes, if you were to ask me what is my "Religion" I would answer Christian Catholic. I think I am, however, a freelance Christian Catholic and I enjoy it very much. More of a Charismatic Conservative if you will. If I can respect yours, please give me the courtesy of respecting mine.
"Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you"
As far as my friend, the JW. I will always love you for the friend that you are. I hope that this doesn't get you upset with me. Either way, I know where I stand. Thanks for listening, I enjoyed writing this entry.
Monday, April 23, 2012
A friend is the dollar in your pocket.
I haven't posted in a while so here goes my latest beef with the world. So called, "Friends".
I know that we really can't call Facebook friends, "friends". It's a social network and I should expect my acquaintances to act as such. I, however, have more faith in my friends that they have of me. For some reason, and I think it's of no fault of my own, I've been blasted and judged, not only behind my back but to my face. The shit is that it's done with a smile on their face and for me not to stir up any problems, I stay quiet and take the abuse. It's anal sex without the lube but with a smile!
Some of these, so-called friends, have placed themselves on such high horses that they can't even see the toilet when they shit! Being part of a click for a long time has given me the experience of a lifetime. I enjoyed the company very much but the honest truth is that everyone gets old. Life moves on. I have lost some very close friends in the past, due to mis-communications, gossip and/or death.
Friends that I truly shed a tear for. Ironically, that's how I've been rating my new friends. Would I shed a tear for them if they passed? Sorry to say but honestly 70% of that answer is no. In high school I was a proud young man. I earned my station in school and I wore the title very well. I may have seemed a bit conceited but I think that view was from haters. sorry to say it but it's true. I never felt I was better than anybody and I still feel the same way now.
I'm just finding it hard to have a conversation with anybody without being judged because I don't drink, smoke or hangout with two-faced, alcoholic hypocrites! Got news for you, I may live in the PJ's, may be home alone, no drinks, no drugs but I am me. And, I am doing what God wants me to do. My kids are not hanging in the streets despite what their mom did to them and they are thriving.
I know I'm venting but I've been holding it in too long. I wish certain people would take their own advice and mind their business. I expect a lot from my friends because they expect a lot from me. If I have come through for them why can't they do the same?
A true friend can go years without seeing each other and it would feel like it was yesterday. I don't feel like that with many of you "friends". I also identify a friend by the title my children call them. It's usually Tio or Titi. It's that because that friend is family. Uncle Spray, Uncle Gus, Uncle Gee. It used to be Tio Jose, titi becky but they took a risk and lost.
For my high school acquaintances, well, those that are truly my friends, you know who you are. You've called me or messaged me out of nowhere just to see how I am doing. Or how my kids are doing. I appreciate that so much. Uncle Jimmy. He's been there through and through and I'll always have much love for him even tho I don't see him often enough. For those that judged me, I will weed you out one by one out of my life.
All I've ever asked of anybody was to walk a mile in my shoes, then judge me not les thee be judged.
Oh and before I forget, If I send you a personal message and you don't answer it, I take offense to that. It takes two minutes just to say, "Everything is fine Ken, I'll get to you later." It's a simple acknowledgement and it releases the stress of my worrying. If you can't answer anything for me then I must say goodbye to you conceited fucks of the world.
To those I love, you understand. To those I like, you too understand. To the rest. Up yours!
I know that we really can't call Facebook friends, "friends". It's a social network and I should expect my acquaintances to act as such. I, however, have more faith in my friends that they have of me. For some reason, and I think it's of no fault of my own, I've been blasted and judged, not only behind my back but to my face. The shit is that it's done with a smile on their face and for me not to stir up any problems, I stay quiet and take the abuse. It's anal sex without the lube but with a smile!
Some of these, so-called friends, have placed themselves on such high horses that they can't even see the toilet when they shit! Being part of a click for a long time has given me the experience of a lifetime. I enjoyed the company very much but the honest truth is that everyone gets old. Life moves on. I have lost some very close friends in the past, due to mis-communications, gossip and/or death.
Friends that I truly shed a tear for. Ironically, that's how I've been rating my new friends. Would I shed a tear for them if they passed? Sorry to say but honestly 70% of that answer is no. In high school I was a proud young man. I earned my station in school and I wore the title very well. I may have seemed a bit conceited but I think that view was from haters. sorry to say it but it's true. I never felt I was better than anybody and I still feel the same way now.
I'm just finding it hard to have a conversation with anybody without being judged because I don't drink, smoke or hangout with two-faced, alcoholic hypocrites! Got news for you, I may live in the PJ's, may be home alone, no drinks, no drugs but I am me. And, I am doing what God wants me to do. My kids are not hanging in the streets despite what their mom did to them and they are thriving.
I know I'm venting but I've been holding it in too long. I wish certain people would take their own advice and mind their business. I expect a lot from my friends because they expect a lot from me. If I have come through for them why can't they do the same?
A true friend can go years without seeing each other and it would feel like it was yesterday. I don't feel like that with many of you "friends". I also identify a friend by the title my children call them. It's usually Tio or Titi. It's that because that friend is family. Uncle Spray, Uncle Gus, Uncle Gee. It used to be Tio Jose, titi becky but they took a risk and lost.
For my high school acquaintances, well, those that are truly my friends, you know who you are. You've called me or messaged me out of nowhere just to see how I am doing. Or how my kids are doing. I appreciate that so much. Uncle Jimmy. He's been there through and through and I'll always have much love for him even tho I don't see him often enough. For those that judged me, I will weed you out one by one out of my life.
All I've ever asked of anybody was to walk a mile in my shoes, then judge me not les thee be judged.
Oh and before I forget, If I send you a personal message and you don't answer it, I take offense to that. It takes two minutes just to say, "Everything is fine Ken, I'll get to you later." It's a simple acknowledgement and it releases the stress of my worrying. If you can't answer anything for me then I must say goodbye to you conceited fucks of the world.
To those I love, you understand. To those I like, you too understand. To the rest. Up yours!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Just for fun!
I wrote this song to the theme of "I will Survive" Hope you enjoy.
At first when we got married
She was by my side
Life was perfect
and we had nothing to hide
Then as time passed by
we fell into a rut
She started looking for diversions
and she messed it all up!
And there she went
right out the door
she followed the same pattern
that she'd done before
She forgot about holding hands
and how beautiful she was
She never looked back
So I looked for God above!
And he told me, You will survive
As long as HE is by my side, I know I'll be alright
For I have been blessed with unconditional love
For God and my Angels watch me from up above!
I will survive!!!
Thank You
At first when we got married
She was by my side
Life was perfect
and we had nothing to hide
Then as time passed by
we fell into a rut
She started looking for diversions
and she messed it all up!
And there she went
right out the door
she followed the same pattern
that she'd done before
She forgot about holding hands
and how beautiful she was
She never looked back
So I looked for God above!
And he told me, You will survive
As long as HE is by my side, I know I'll be alright
For I have been blessed with unconditional love
For God and my Angels watch me from up above!
I will survive!!!
Thank You
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